Trying To Put It Back Together

The "it" is me. I am trying to put me back together. I've been on a downward spiral for some time now. I know it. I don't know if I didn't want to admit it or change it or what, but I've been in a rut. But the problem with being in a rut and not changing it is that it just keeps getting deeper.

However, yesterday...actually late last night/very early this morning...I don't know what happened but I started to feel that urge. You know, the urge that I have to pull myself out of this rut or else the consequences are going to be even worse than what I'm dealing with right now. Of course when this happens I start to wonder why I'm doing this. Is it just me? Is it something I'm doing? Why do I allow this to happen? Why can't I stop it before the spiraling begins?

I guess I'm just happy that I still have the ability to pull myself out before it gets too bad and try not to think if this part will ever change...

My Friday To-Do List:

1. Do all of my SADO homework

2. Do all of my E&T homework

3. Do all of my Trial Practice homework

4. Go & see my guy

5. Write out my shopping list

6. Go shopping

7. Do laundry

8. Pick up the house

9. Write out my bills

10. Balance my checkbook

11. Drop off the munchkin's script

12. Pick up both of our scripts

13. Get an oil change

14. Get an estimate on the damage to my car

15. Write my guy

16. Workout

17. Dig out more of my guy's paperwork and mail it

18. File this week & last week's papers

19. Catch up on my emails

20. Catch up on my TIVO

21. Pick out an outfit for me for Easter & for my Book Award's ceremony

22. Make my reservations for the Book Award's ceremony

23. Make reservations for after the Book Award's ceremony

24. Finish picking up supplies for the Easter Bunny

25. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations

26. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next several months

27. Research taking the MPRE this August

28. Research the Kaplan classes for the MPRE

29. Research the BarBri classes for the Bar

30. Call for my room for the bar next year

31. Verify the contents of the CDs I received from the pics developed a couple weeks ago

32. Attend the munchkin's Pine Wood Derby

33. Exchange my lancets

34. Begin working on my April Budget

35. Get organized

36. Refocus with WWs

37. Refocus for next week

38. Get me some serious sleep

39. Plan out my week (it is going to be a busy one!)

40. Get my shit together