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My favorite quote...We all live in hiding. In one way or another each of us conceal pieces of ourselves from the rest of the world. Some people hide because their lives depend on it. Others because they don't like being seen. And then there are those special cases, the ones who hide because they just want someone to care enough to look for them...Which one are you?

Friday, January 22, 2010

TGIF

This has been one long week. It was a short work week, but it sure didn't feel that way. It was actually a pretty crazy week. But hey...it is the weekend, so let's get it started, shall we?


My Friday To-Do List:
1. Kick ass @ work for 8 hours
2. Go & see my guy
3. Write out my shopping list
4. Go shopping
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. File this week's papers
8. Do all of my E&T homework
9. Do all of my SADO homework
10. Do all of my Trial Practice homework
11. Catch up on my emails
12. Call in the refill on my script
13. Drop off the munchkin's script
14. Pick up our scripts
15. Write out my bills
16. Balance my checkbook (don't worry...I've been balancing it everyday since this episode)
17. Forward soccer coach's email to the team
18. Catch up on my TIVO
19. Write a few personal business letters that I need to get out
20. Go to my PCP Saturday morning
21. Hang up my munchkin's 8x10 pics from school & his Christmas pictures
22. Write my guy
23. Get me some sleep
24. Refocus for next week
25. Plan out my week
26. Get organized
27. Get my shit together
28. Stay motivated

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I Kicked Voir Dire Ass Today

This was the assignment this week in Trial Practice. I have fretted over this assignment for 7 days since it was assigned last Thursday. Preparing questions for potential jurors for our "case." The biggest stressor was the fact that there are 13 students in my class, myself included. Seven of us were prosecutors and six were defense counsel. We were originally broke into two groups. One of 3 and 3 and one consisting of 4 prosecutors and 3 defense counsel. Each person had to perform voir dire for five minutes and you couldn't repeat what anyone else asked in your group, so in my group the pressure was that you basically had to have up to 20 minutes of voir dire ready because what if you went last (#4) and the other three asked some of the same questions you had drafted.

I stayed up until 3am working on my voir dire last night. I still didn't have the good questions and felt like I was totally blocked. It was like I couldn't move forward with my questions. I had about five pages drafted and none of them were really powerful questions. I knew Prof. Arrogant was not going to be happy with what I had drafted. So about 11am at work I started working on it again today. Still feeling frozen, finally at 1:40pm I packed up my stuff and rushed out the door.

Class started at 2pm, I had to go to the bathroom, drive to school and get to the 3rd floor. Of course by the time I arrived at my car it was only to realize that it was blocked in. I finally got the attendant's attention (when I went to his little box and knocked on the window) and he moved the car. I texted my LSBFF and requested Prof. Arrogant's number and called and to tell him I might be a few minutes late because my car was blocked in. As the phone rang I contemplated telling him I wouldn't be there at all and that I was going to drop the class. (I guess I was even more freaked than I thought!) I actually arrived at 1:58pm!

When I sat down I still didn't have my shit together! I still didn't know what I was going to do...what I was going to ask in my five minutes and what happened if I was last of our group of four!?! I was mortified when I was told I would be the 3rd person to perform, i.e. the second prosecutor. OMG...I scribbled some notes down on page 1 of 5, got up and did my thing. I waited until after class to talk with the professor. I explained the freakout that I had been living on for 7 days because of this assignment and he said I did a great job and that I earned more points today than anyone else in the class! WTF?

I was amazed and living on cloud 9. Then I ran into one of the girls from class who paid me a huge compliment. She told me I did a great job and that I speak very well. WHAT?! She said something else but I can't remember word for word what she said, but I remember that it was fantastic! (This is probably due to the fact that I haven't been to bed before 2am any night this week!) Yay me!!!

With this wonderful experience I must declare I feel like I finally got my shit together this week! ;) Too bad I didn't get all of my reading done for this same class so I could say "Consider it all done." Oh well...maybe next week! :D

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22
Just getting started: 10

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Organizing~~Starting Small

Maybe it is a chick thing, but I carry a lot of crap. Most mornings I exit the house with my school bag, my work bag, my lunch bag, and my purse. Some mornings I add the gym bag to my load. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen as often as I would like. In an effort to reduce my heavy load I decided to go through some of my bags and clean out what I really don't need.

The first thing I decided to clean out was my pencil case for school. Why am I carrying all of this stuff?

Writing instruments:
4 Pilot blue gel pens (2)
2 Pilot blue rolling ball pens
1 Sharpie blue permanent pen
1 Sharpie black permanent pen
1 Sharpie black ultra fine point permanent marker
1 Sharpie metallic silver permanent marker
1 Pilot pencil (plus I added one)
2 Sharpie Accent yellow highlighters

Post-It Flags-Nondurable:
1 Yellow (unopened)
1 Purple (unopened)
1 Lime Green (unopened)
1 Pink (opened)
2 Blue (one opened, one unopened)

Post-It Flags-Durable:
1 White/Red Stripe (opened)
1 Pink, Green, Orange Striped set of 3 (opened)
1 Pink, Green, Orange set of 3 (unopened)
1 Red, Yellow, Blue set of 3 (unopened)

Miscellaneous:
A poney tail holder
The small plug piece for my laptop
The tiny plastic cover for my laptop charger
A rubber finger to flip through pages
A set of pink ear plugs (mainly used for final exams)
Earbuds for my ipod
Staple remover

Seriously, do I need all of this crap?! Time to get organized and clean it out. What did I keep you ask? Look above...it is bolded. You would think it wouldn't make a difference, but it certainly does! Next time I'll clean out my work bag, which at times can weigh about 35lbs. YIKES!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9*, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22
Just getting started: 10, 15, 21

*~~I didn't finish this until almost 2:00am last night, but it is done regardless! Woo-hoo! Can you believe just three things left on my list to do this week? I frickin' rock! LOL

Monday, January 18, 2010

Martin Luther King, Jr. Day

Today we pay respect to such a wonderful man. A legend really. A life that was cut way too short. While so many of us enjoy the day away from our daily grind, I hope you will also take a moment to pay tribute to a legend.

Thank You Dr. King. We love you, your spirit, your heart and the legacy you left us to carry on...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Nothing Needs Attention

That's right folks...by Sunday night I have either completed or at least started everything on this week's to-do list. When you do it once, you want to do it again, but even better and faster the next time.

In other news...I sucked it up and weighed myself again this morning. I was very happy to see I lost another 1.6lbs! Yay me!! :D I'm so happy about this. I've lost a total of 40.6lbs! I have another 22.6lbs to hit the next goal I've set for myself! It has been a long road to hit this point and I have an even longer road to go, but baby I'm in this corner at 322.4lbs and I'm loving every minute of it!!!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17*, 19, 20
Just getting started: 8, 9, 10, 15, 18, 21, 22

*~~Even though I didn't go to bed until after 5am Saturday night/Sunday morning thanks to my neighbors who this time were really having a party, unlike last time, when I got home at 1am from Monster Jam, I slept till almost 1pm this afternoon. Plus counting that 1.5 hour nap yesterday afternoon before heading to Monster Jam I guess I should consider this done.

All Men Are Just Little Boys At Heart

This is something I've known for a very long time, but witnessed it again last night at Monster Jam. The munchkin described the night as "The best night of my life!" Isn't he a doll? I love my baby! :) I will admit, it was a blast. Getting there wasn't, but once we were there it was awesome!

The trip into the city was fine until we hit the city. Every single short cut was blocked, which took extra time for us to find out. At one point, we thought we found the way in only to be sent around in a circle by the idiots directing traffic. We finally made it there and made it inside to get to our seats 15 mins before the show started. Even though we were on the top level, we were only the second row in and our seats were great. The only problem we encountered were the two old fat assholes at the end of the row who gave you grief, dirty looks and blew their breath for making them get up so we could get to our seats. This lead to only one trip out in the 3 hours we were there and that was only to get munchies. Since there was only one way into the row we had to pass the fat old men each time. I wanted to say to them "sucks to be you, deal with it and consider it some exercise!"

The show was fantastic and all of the men were so into it it cracked my aunt and I up! Of course we had started laughing when we were looking for parking and I said to her, "Um, do you see the guy in the bib overalls? I don't think he has a shirt on." She agrees, laughing, and then she adds, "And he has dread-locks!" We bust out laughing and I declare, "Welcome to Redneck Country* at the D!"

During the freestyle portion of the night, which is my favorite part and I suspect everyone else's too, one guy flipped his truck early and the crowd went nuts! So what does every driver afterwards do? Flip their truck, of course!! It was so funny! The more they tore up their vehicles, the more men yelled, screamed and cheered!! It was great!!

Every January/February we have made it tradition to take the munchkin to see Elmo, but since my son declared this year he was too old for Elmo** I think we found its replacement.

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17
Just getting started: 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, 15, 18, 22
Needs attention: 7, 19, 20, 21

*~~No offense intended here as my man declares himself as a redneck, so please don't take offense. I've actually picked up some redneck tendencies in the decade I've been with my guy! ;)
**~~Against my wishes, my munchkin is right. He was probably too old last year too, but I wasn't willing to make that jump to an older forum to carry out our yearly tradition yet. I wasn't really ready to make that jump this year either, but I did and I'm glad that I did it. Of course, this just makes my desire for more babies stronger...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Burrito Anyone?

So last night while grocery shopping I picked up some frozen burritos, which I love! I was weak at the moment since it was after 10 pm and I was starving. I decided instead of going through a drive thru at 11pm when I was leaving the store that I would just eat a couple of my yummy burritos when I got home instead. I guess I should have read the nutritional values first, because I almost passed out when I took my blood sugar last night (technically this morning around 2:44am~~2 hours after my "meal") and it was 182!! OMG!! My first instant thought was that at lunch yesterday the waitress refilled my diet coke with real coke and that that was the culprit, because it certainly couldn't be my wonderful, delicious frozen burrito! I was already very close to my bed and totally exhausted so I decided to figure it out this morning. Well, my numbers were back down to 102 when I tested it this morning and I came out and read the nutritional values and discovered that one burrito contained 47grams of carbs! YIKES!! So I guess it was probably my burritos and not the waitress attempting to "slip" me some real coke... Dang it, I love those burritos and I have 8 left...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 12, 14, 16,
Just getting started: 8, 9, 10, 11, 15, 22
Needs attention: 5, 6, 7, 13, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21

Friday, January 15, 2010

One Strange Day...Is there a full moon?

Of course it started out with me oversleeping...go figure. I was about 30 mins late to work, which isn't unusual for me. I confess...I'm a slacker, especially this week. Of course now crap is piled up on my desk and to be honest when I signed out at 4:29pm I didn't care. I just needed to leave. I need these next 3 days off, badly. I made great time and went and saw my man, which was great! :) From there I went grocery shopping to get that out of the way, or at least the majority of it since it appears against the law for one store to carry everything I require. After I loaded the bags into the back end of my car I put the cart away and when I looked up I see two teenage girls sitting in their car smoking dope. Yes, I have issues with this for several reasons...

#1) It is illegal;
#2) If you choose to do something illegal, that is your choice; however, maybe you shouldn't do it in public;
#3) If you throw caution to the wind and do this in a public maybe you shouldn't do it in the Meijer parking lot;
#4) And if you choose to do this illegal act in the public parking lot of Meijer at least you picked night time to do it (Kudos to you for this smart decision);
#5) However, you lost the kudos above when you opted to park under one of the big-ass lights that illuminate everything you are doing in your car.

But young ladies, let me tell you this...had my 7 year-old son been with me I wouldn't have opted not to swing by the state police who had an unlucky speeder pulled over in the entrance to the store less than an acre away as I did tonight. Let that be your lesson this evening...pick a better, non-public place to commit an illegal act.

After deciding not to narc out the public pot-smoking teen girls to the state cop, I filled up with gas and headed home. That is when I was passed by another motorist. This happens from time to time. Not usually me since I have one hell of a lead foot, but it can happen. It is to be expected. What is not to be expected is to be passed when you are already going ten over the speed limit. What is also not to be expected is for the passer to pass the passee* using the turn lane on a bridge. Now that is safe, asshole!

Consider it done: 1**, 2, 3, 12, 16
Just getting started: 4, 8, 9, 10, 11, 15, 22
Needs attention: 5, 6, 7, 13, 14, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21

*~~this isn't a word, but it really seems to work. Don't ya think?
**~~this was not overly successful since I was totally exhausted Friday and was falling asleep at my desk while typing. But the one great thing about work is you get a re-do several times a week! Well...hopefully.

An Abbreviated Version

Since I accomplished so much in the last week (yay me!), I'm able to enter this weekend with an abbreviated version of my usual Friday entry. So...with the goal of being able to beat this, here we go.

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Play catch up @ work for 8 hours
2. Go & see my guy
3. Write out my shopping list
4. Go shopping
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. File this week's papers
8. Do all of my E&T homework
9. Do all of my SADO homework
10. Do all of my Trial Practice homework
11. Catch up on my emails
12. Catch up on my TIVO
13. Take the munchkin to Monster Jam (hopefully we can get tickets!!)
14. Get an oil change
15. Get my hospital invoice paid
16. Finish putting up our winter theme decorations
17. Get me some sleep
18. Refocus for next week
19. Plan out my week
20. Get organized
21. Get my shit together
22. Stay motivated

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Needs Attention: Nada

This likely will not happen often so I have to brag about it. I have nothing from my list in my "Needs Attention" column. Now if only I could blog tomorrow night saying everything on my list is considered done that would be a miracle! But since I can't get a return call from the hospital to pay my bill and I doubt I can get all of my E&T and Trial Practice homework for this week done in the next 24 hours. But I'll take what I can get, for now. :)

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 20, 21, 22, 24, 26, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36
Just getting started: 19, 23, 25, 30
Needs attention: Nada



Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Observations

Monday~~
  • While standing outside the building, freezing my fingers and behind off while the temperatures hover in the high-teens, low-twenties I witness a man walking towards me. His gloves look vaguely familiar. When he passes me, I watch his hands sway next to him and as he passes I realize where I've seen those gloves before...in my son's baseball bag. Dude was wearing batting gloves. Now I know my hobo-gloves don't offer total warmth with the fingertips missing, but how warm could batting gloves be in Arctic temps?
  • Motivation for me seems to come from actually doing. Strange how that works, isn't it? The more I did on my list this weekend and this week, the more I wanted to get done. If only I could continue to remember this and follow through on it maybe then I would get more and more done. Why is this such a hard lesson for me to learn and to remember? Don't you think this should be an easy lesson? Is this the way it always is? My goodness...the issue of motivation for me has raised a lot of questions, hasn't it? ;)
Tuesday~~
  • When I'm feeling motivated in an area of my life, i.e. personal life, school life, work life I can only be motivated in one maybe two at a time. I can't be motivated in all areas of my life. This week I've been focused on motivation in my personal life first and in my school life second. You know what that means...my work life has suffered. Usually this would be cause for concern, but I can't do it all. So today I took for me and my personal things and some school things. Hey, a girl can only concentrate on so many things at once.
  • Leaving my office at 5:55pm to get a Diet Coke and a quick smoke before you return to read before class only gets you one thing...locked off your floor. And when you ask security to let you back up there, they will ask you for the one thing you don't have on you...your ID. Why? Because you don't need it to smoke or to buy a $2 drink. Where is it? Um...in my office on that floor that y'all won't let me get up to. Security offers to call to verify I am who I claim to be, but they will be calling an office that is closed and goes to voice mail. Shocking that my office would be closed at 6:05pm, isn't it? Luckily one of our supervisors was still in the office and I actually had that person's cell phone number. More shocking is that when he answered the phone "Yo Yo Your Momma" I didn't even identify myself and just verified he was still where I needed him and that I needed him to come and get me! Who knew the "big guy" would be my knight in a shiny elevator tonight... Upon leaving my office at 7:30pm tonight, I swung by security to make sure he knew I did really belong there and was told that they were just trying to keep us safe. From who? Myself? Apparently me and my Diet Coke are quite dangerous. Who knew!
Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 20, 21, 22, 26, 27, 28, 29, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36
Just getting started: 19*, 23, 24, 25, 30
Needs attention: 31

*~~Who knew this would take more than one call/transaction, but at least I have it started!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Pleasant Surprise

It has been a while since I've weighed in, 3 weeks tomorrow. WWs has not started back up at work and I don't know if it will be. I sent an email to the girl in the building who is the organizer of the meetings, but I haven't heard back from her yet. So I figured I better come up with another way to track my weight.

Since I'm below the 350 mark I thought maybe I would register on my own scale now. So this morning...er afternoon since I didn't get up until noon...I got on my own scale and was pleasantly surprised. I lost two more pounds!! I know that isn't much in three weeks, but when you factor in Christmas, this, the stress at work, New Year's, my snafu and starting back to school I think this is a bit of a miracle!

So now I'm down to 324, 39lbs down, and only 24.2lbs away from my goal of being down below 300!!! I haven't set a goal date since I didn't come any where near my last goal of 1/1/10, but I'm okay with it. I'm just delighted that I made it through the holiday season, the stress of the new year, and didn't gain. Well, maybe I did, but whatever I gained I lost within 10 days into the new year, plus some! Yay me!!

This even lead me to cooking this weekend instead of eating out...that is a whole other miracle since I much prefer eating out! LOL Now if only I could get motivated to do some homework...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 17, 18, 21, 26, 27, 28, 32, 33, 34, 35
Just getting started: 6, 7, 29
Needs attention: 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 22, 23, 24, 25, 30, 31, 36

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I Am Blessed Because of You, Thank You

I am truly blessed. I've been meaning to write this for some time, but after spending over two and a half hours chatting with Captain (thank you for tonight...I appreciate it and I really needed someone to listen to me, I feel so much better with all of it!) it reminded me that I am truly blessed with the friends I have. Whenever I need something, they are there for me. Even when I can't bring myself to reach out on my own, they reach into me and help me with whatever I am dealing with at that time.

My friends are always there when I need them. They help me with problems such as this one (thank you Blaez, Debbie & LSBFF) or that one (Blaez, LSBFF, SillyJilly & Captain). They are always supportive, especially here (Blaez & Dani) and here (Blaez, Dani & Debbie). And whenever I need to vent and they know about I'm talking about, they almost always answer their phones to listen to my crap, regardless if it is irrational or incoherent. (Blaez, Captain, Dani, Debbie, LSBFF, MyMormonGirl, & SillyJilly) My friends also give me wonderful advice with things like this (LSBFF).

Ladies, I thank you and I am so blessed to know you. I love you and I thank you all for allowing me to consider you a friend...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3*, 4**, 5, 8, 9***, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 21, 28
Just getting started: 6, 7, 26, 29
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 22, 23, 24, 25, 27, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36

*~~My prayers were not answered. :(
**~~Due to my man's concern for my safety, we opted for me to visit this morning. He called both Thursday & Friday to tell me to wait to come and see him. He didn't want me to brave the dangerous roads...isn't he sweet? ;)
***~~I have this all set up now and I'm tracking expenses daily. I think this will so help. I was going to buy lunch today, but decided against it because I not only didn't need it as I had a sandwich and didn't need the extra calories, plus I didn't want to enter the expense on my budget! LOL

Friday, January 8, 2010

Roll Tide!!

Way to go Alabama!!! The Crimson Tide won the BCS National Championship last night! That makes my man very happy! And I, as a crazy woman, stayed up till after midnight to watch the game & the win... I was pretty nervous in the early minutes of the game, but in the end 'Bama pulled it out and beat the Texas Longhorns 37-21!!!

Way to go 'Bama!!!!

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Bust my butt at work since I've kind of been slacking this week
2. Go to my dreaded meeting
3. Pray we get to leave early after our dreaded meeting
4. Go and see my guy either after work or for a few hours Saturday depending on road conditions
5. Write out shopping list
6. Go shopping
7. Do laundry
8. Pick up the house
9. Work on my budget
10. Write out bills
11. Balance my checkbook
12. Pick up the munchkin's Christmas pictures (finally!)
13. Write out the munchkin's Christmas pictures
14. Mail out our New Year's cards
15. File this week's papers
16. Make sure everything is ready to file my taxes and apply for financial aid when my 2009 papers arrive
17. Take the munchkin for his blood work
18. Pay pharamacy invoice in person from my diabetic supplies
19. Pay hospital invoice in person from my diabetic educational visits
20. Pay my catherine's bill in person
21. Pick up my suits from the drycleaners
22. Fax my blood sugar numbers to my specialist
23. Do all my E&T homework
24. Do all my SADO homework
25. Do all my Trial Practice homework
26. Catch up on my TIVO
27. Get me some sleep
28. Reschedule my pampering appointment because I think we may take the munchkin to Monster Jam that night
29. Take down our Christmas decorations
30. Put up our winter theme decorations
31. Get the munchkin's haircut
32. Refocus for next week
33. Plan out my week
34. Get organized
35. Get my shit together
36. Get motivated

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Canceled

When the word "Canceled" is on a piece of paper or posted on TWEN next to a class you have on your schedule, almost everything in the world seems to be going in the right direction. So today after attending my early class, Trial Practice @ 2pm, while walking to the restroom I glanced at the door to my 6pm class to see if I could spend the next hour sitting in there waiting for class to start and instead I see "E&T tonight at 6pm Canceled" I wanted to weep with joy in the hallway! Of course it was after I tanked my bail hearing in TP and looking out at the 2 inches of fresh snow on the road, so it was even sweeter. So instead I headed home. My usual 45 minute drive turned into an hour and a half, but I didn't care, because I wasn't in class!! Woo-hoo!!

As for the tanking of my bail hearing...I had such a headache starting that 3 hour class, I know no one in the damn class, and I was (and still am) exhausted. I figure this way, Prof. Arrogant will see massive improvement! Yes, he spent tons of time telling us how our performance tonight would be our first impression on him and means so much and I blew it. To be honest, I didn't care. I was the last person out of 13 people to go and I was starving on top of my exhaustion and headache. The quicker I could finish so we could leave the better. No better way to do that than to tank the exercise. It is what it is and it is over.

I figure this was a great way to end my school week, especially since my whole week has sucked, tomorrow will suck and we are now buried in several inches of snow... C'est la vie!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21*, 22, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 33, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39
Just getting started: 5, 8, 9, 24, 30, 40, 41, 42
Needs attention: 23, 34

*~~apparently there is a hiccup in the new multi-million dollar system that my school purchased that isn't compatably with annoymous grading or the grading program that the profs use so there is a temporary, indefinite delay in getting grades. Of course, this is a rumor. Of course, this is a stressor. Of course, this is complete and total crap. Of course, to prevent from going postal I've marked my stalking completed...it just didn't produce anything yet. Blah!!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Recovering on hump day...

Today was a better day. I was exhausted though as I didn't sleep worth a crap last night. I didn't get to bed until a little after 2am and then I couldn't sleep and as soon as I started falling asleep I started hacking! Finally a little after 3am I got up, took an allergy pill and went back to bed. I feel asleep a little while later. That makes for a long day, tired on my ass.

The stress is rising by the minute at the office and I fear we won't know much on Friday. More than that, I fear we won't be allowed to leave early. :( With the fear of not knowing much more come Friday that just means that the stress, anxiety and fear will continue to increase, not decrease.

School stress is pretty high since two of my Profs didn't get a syllabus to us before class, but still had an assignment due that night. Seriously?!? So now I'm behind in all of my classes and will have double work this weekend. Ugh... The good thing is that I just have to make it through until 7:50pm tomorrow night and week #1 will be complete! Thank God!

Tomorrow is payday so that is such a plus...

One positive thing from this mess is that I have been really good with my money & my WWs! :D Trying to be positive here y'all...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 33, 39
Just getting started: 5, 8, 9, 11, 20, 21, 24, 40, 41, 42
Needs attention: 10, 23, 30, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

First Meltdown of 2010

Five days into the new year and I came unglued. Yes, my stress level is scary high right now for so many reasons. Well, one of my stressors burst open today, which lead me to my first meltdown of 2010. Tears, sobs, tissues, runny mascara...the whole bit. It all started with an email I received when I entered my car to go to work this morning. As soon as I saw it on the crackberry I knew things had boiled over and I had failed. I made it to work in record time, signed in and verified my fears from the email. Then I had to call for help. That call went out to my trusted and ever supportive aunt. I explained the problem and less than 4 words into my phone conversation is when the tears started. There was some name calling involved as well, along with the rhetorical question posed asking how stupid I could be. She promised to fix my problem a-sap, which she did within the matter of an hour. Before I could get it together my man called me. As soon as I said "hi" he asked what was wrong and the tears continued to flow and then the sobs started and some more name calling. He said all the right things and then made me laugh a bit. Our 15 minute phone call stopped the tears and made things better. I was grateful for that. Of course I spent the remainder of the day on verge of tears all day...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 33, 39
Just getting started: 5, 8, 9, 11, 20, 21, 24, 40, 41, 42
Needs attention: 10*, 23, 30, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38,

*~~this is impossible when you get an email before 8am telling you your account is overdrawn by almost $500...it also will bring you to tears, make you sob and call yourself an idiot! Ugh...what a shitty day today...

Monday, January 4, 2010

Winner-Winner-Chicken Dinner

After working my new Monday schedule, I raced to the meat market to get supplies for my lunch to help me stay on track with WWs and my sugar numbers. As I stood at the deli counter I hear some man ask, "Have you eaten dinner yet?" I assumed he was talking to someone else as I was not looking in his direction. By the third time of him asking the same question I looked in his direction and realized he was talking to me! I let him ask a fourth time to make sure and then I confirmed with a question of my own, "Are you talking to me?" He looked at me like I was asking him if he was speaking Russian and then he answered affirmatively, so I responded with an astounded negative. He then asked if I wanted a cooked chicken, for free. Absolutely!! So I left the store with my carrots, lunch meat, syrup and a free broasted chicken. :) Of course dinner was already done at home, but there is always tomorrow!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 9, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 25, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 39
Just getting started: 5, 20, 21, 24, 26, 40, 41, 42
Need to look at still: 10, 11, 23, 30, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Trying to start the New Year out right

Since I won't start to focus on my New Year's Resolutions until Monday, I am attempting to accomplish some things on my list of things to-do...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 12, 13*, 14**, 16***, 18, 39
Just getting started: 5, 6, 7, 17, 20, 21, 25, 26, 31, 32, 40, 41
Need to look at still: 8, 9, 10, 11, 15, 19, 22, 23, 24, 27, 28, 29, 30, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 42

*~~So I attempted to return those damn jeans; however, when I went in I was advised that they could only give me $2.96 for them. Seriously?!? Of course the excuse being that this was the price they were on sale for, so I then asked her to point me to the rack of where the $2.96 jeans were at! She advised me that there weren't any. Imagine that! So I offered to exchange them for another pair of jeans and was promptly told that I would have to pay the difference in price. I then promptly told her I could sell them on ebay for more or better yet...I would rather give them to a homeless person then to allow them to put them on a discount rack to be purchased for $10 after they only give me $2.96 for them! Ugh. So I returned home with my too big jeans. Well, at least I tried!
**~~They are all wrote out, addressed and ready to go. I just need the munchkin's Christmas pictures to arrive (no later than 1/6/10) to insert them inside and stamp my cards and they will be ready for mailing! This year I'm only sending out 27 cards, which is a huge difference because back in my "hay-day" of mailing Christmas cards I would mail over a hundred!!
***~~I was behind by 12 envelopes when I finally wrote my man. That is the worst it has ever been! (This is an example of why one of my New Year's Resolutions was made!) I just need to stamp it and stick it in the mail! :)

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!

As we all embark on this New Year and New Decade, many of us will set New Year's Resolutions. Some will call them goals and others will go with the traditional title of resolutions. Most will break them, but others will be able to keep them. There are the usual ones of lose weight, stop smoking and then some people have more unusual ones such as have less sexual relations with random women*. Some people will make one and others will make multiple resolutions.

I am fairly traditional with many things in my life so I make several traditional and some non-traditional New Year's Resolutions and without further ado...

j'lynn's new year's resolutions:
  • Get healthier
  • ~~continue to lose weight
  • ~~eat better/healthier
  • ~~workout more
  • ~~drink more water
  • ~~test my blood sugar more regularly
  • ~~get my skin under control
  • ~~get more sleep with a better sleep pattern/schedule
  • Get my finances together
  • ~~make a budget & stick to it
  • ~~reduce my debt
  • ~~stop use of all credit cards
  • ~~pay off BarBri & Kaplan
  • Get more organized
  • ~~at work
  • ~~at/for school
  • ~~at home
  • ~~use better time management
  • ~~get things done
  • ~~stop putting things off till tomorrow (or next week)
  • ~~set a schedule and stick to it
  • Communicate more in person, via email, calls, texts & letters
  • ~~with family
  • ~~with friends
  • ~~with my munchkin
  • ~~with my man
  • ~~with my blog & my blogging buddies
  • Enjoy life
  • ~~laugh more
  • ~~cry more
  • ~~dance more
  • ~~sing more
  • ~~be a better mom
*~~courtesy of a caller into the radio station yesterday while I was driving to see my guy