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My favorite quote...We all live in hiding. In one way or another each of us conceal pieces of ourselves from the rest of the world. Some people hide because their lives depend on it. Others because they don't like being seen. And then there are those special cases, the ones who hide because they just want someone to care enough to look for them...Which one are you?

Friday, April 30, 2010

Another Friday, Another List

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Bust my ass at work.
2. Go & see my guy
3. Wirte out my grocery list
4. Go shopping
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. Write out my bills
8. Balance my checkbook
9. Study for my E&T final
10. Get my hair "did"
11. Get my nails done
12. Attend my parents' 25th Wedding Anniversary Party
13. Attend my munchkin's First Communion
14. File my papers
15. Write my guy
16. Workout
17. Get me some sleep
18. Work on my May budget
19. Send out the snack schedule for soccer
20. Write my "bitch" letter about some issues I have with my man's facility
21. Get re-motivated
22. Refocus with WWs
23. Refocus for next week
24. Plan out my week
25. Get organized
26. Get my shit together

Thursday, April 29, 2010

So Many Things...Can't Even Post About 'Em...Mental Overload

Made it the gym again today! Woo-hoo. 20 mins on the treadmill, 40 mins on the upper body machines, 20 more mins on the treadmill. :) I'm so proud of me! hehehe

Earlier in the day I finally got my wish...our computers were down at work all damn day! I wish I had gotten more done of "my" stuff but I did get several things done. Coupons clipped, school notes typed up, my man's PB letter drafted, caught up on emails, etc...

I came across so many things to post about that my mind became overloaded and I can't seem to post any of them. Go figure. I guess I could mention my hometown hero that will be buried tomorrow after losing his life in Afghanistan. (Thank you SGT. You are loved and will be greatly missed.) I could mention the ass at the gym who switched one of the TVs to Glenn Beck and then walked away and never looked at the TV again...nice dude! I could post about the fact that my boss who I revealed my diabetes diagnosis to tried to force me to eat sweets today. WTF?!? Too many things have lead to mental overload...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22
Just getting started: 23, 24
Needs attention: 10, 14

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Good News On Hump Day!

So today was the meeting with the munchkin's teacher and his wing dean. It went better than I expected. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. They wanted to make sure we were all on the same page with everything that is going on. The wing dean wants to sit down and talk with the munchkin to see if she can help him with things. I thought that was good. The teacher also indicated that this year's class does not seem to mesh well, which does happen from time to time, but in all of her years teaching (3-4 years) she has not had seen it so bad. She is concerned as my munchkin seems to be ostracizing himself from the rest of the class. :( Apparently he likes to yell at them when they bother him. He is so his mother. LOL Of course I'm sure this whole situation is not over and will continue, but this little chapter is now closed. :)

Apparently either to soothe my no longer frazzled nerves or to celebrate this success I delved into a huge pile of ice cream topped with mounds of hot fudge. Definitely not good for the whole weight loss thing, but I must say it was crazy yummy! I swear I ate so much that I thought I was going to be sick. Opps... I cannot tell you the last time I ate a hot fudge sundae and I better not eat another one again for a long time, but I will say I totally enjoyed every bite of it! Of course now I'll be up till 2am making sure my workout clothes are washed and dried to workout tomorrow! I have a crap load of hot fudge and ice cream to work off!

On a side note...I ordered my swimsuit for our weekend away! I also ordered my planner pages, I picked the 2nd set from here! Oh yeah...the best news~~my cousin & his wife are having a girl!!!!! :) The best part is...it irritates my mother & my brother! LOL My brother has the strongest desire to have a girl before me, but has only produced 4 boys thus far and my mom is convinced that my cousin only wanted a girl to have the first (biological) girl born in our family since me. Isn't my family loving?! hehehe

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22
Just getting started: 23, 24
Needs attention: 9, 10, 14

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

That Explains It

Both Sunday & Monday night I was in the bed before 11:20pm. I really didn't think anything was going on, honestly. Well until that nose bleed and then those glowing things that I "discovered" this morning. So I went to work, dragged my ass to the gym and then went on to Urgent Care. Just as I diagnosed...sinus infection. Lucky me...

Wish me luck y'all because tomorrow I meet with the munchkin's teacher and the wing dean or as I like to call her the wing ding at 3:30pm.

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22
Just getting started: 23, 24
Needs attention: 9, 10, 14

Monday, April 26, 2010

Mondays Suck

I woke up today with a wicked headache...well, actually it didn't really gear up until after I was in the shower and getting ready for work. Then I ended up with a slight nose bleed. I still managed to go to work and not accomplish much.

After work the munchkin and I headed off to his Den Meeting. Those people (the other parents) are nuts!!! Why can't they be as perfect as I?!? LMFAO My munchkin did great though. Another kid was hitting my munchkin with his hat and my son did nothing other than tell an adult. I was so proud of him. Now don't get me wrong, a part of me wanted my son to turn around and cold-cock this little bastard. But since we no longer live in the world that I grew up in, he did the right thing and I was so crazy proud of him!! :) Way to go munchkin!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 11, 13, 16, 17, 19, 22
Just getting started: 5, 12, 18, 20, 21, 23, 24
Needs attention: 9, 10, 14, 15

Sunday, April 25, 2010

It's On...Like Donkey-Kong!

One of my blogging buds has issued a challenge. (Thank you Blaez!) We both have major things going on in the next year of our lives. She is getting married and going dress shopping come December. I am finishing law school, taking the bar, and hopefully will be reunited (physically) with my man come December. So the challenge has been accepted! (Head over here to see how she's doing and also to show her some love and support for challenging me!) Hopefully the end result is that we both lose a shit-load of weight by December and we both come out as winners!

After a very stressful week, I was not excited to hop on the scales this morning. But I'm happy with the results, even though it is a slight increase. I was afraid I had gained back everything I lost last week. I think it probably helped the fact that even though I was starving before I went to bed last night at 4:00am I refrained from eating! So, as I get ready for the challenge, here is where I start...Today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs
Current weight (today): 318.6lbs
This week's results: +0.6lbs
Total weight lost: 44.4lbs

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 11, 13, 16, 17, 19, 22
Just getting started: 5, 12, 18, 20, 21, 23, 24
Needs attention: 9, 10, 14, 15

Saturday, April 24, 2010

It All Leads To The Perfect Afternoon

Okay, so I have this new addiction...Klondike, the game on my crackberry! I just have to play it like all the time. I go to bed and play a couple games till I can't keep my eyes open any longer and then go to sleep, which is exactly what I did last night around 4am... Of course I knew I needed to get up and out of the house this morning/early afternoon in order to make the post office and the bank before 1pm, so I set my alarm for 11:30am. I woke up a little before my alarm went off, but wasn't ready to leave the warmth of my comfy bed, so what did I do? Yes, you've guessed it...I grabbed the crackberry and started playing Klondike! This wouldn't be totally bad, but it lead me to not getting out of the bed and into the shower until sometime after 12:00pm! Opps!!

Now realizing how behind I was running I start kicking my butt into high gear and realize no matter how fast I move unless I cut a few things out of my morning routine I'm never going to make it to the post office or bank before 1pm. While racing around trying to get things together to run out the door I decide it is okay if I don't make the bank before they close, that is why God created ATMs! I knew I was still going to be cutting it close just to make the post office before they closed, which wasn't an option for me! Hey, a girl needs a roll of stamps and to weigh two pieces of mail and she cannot do that without a post office being open! Oh yeah...said girl also needed to mail a bill that she should have mailed yesterday from work...opps again!

I attempt to throw my hair up and realize that my bangs have a mind of their own and I don't have time to fuss, so my sunglasses became a hair accessory today! As a dork I find myself driving with sunglasses on my head and unable to see with the sun shinning right in my eyes. Sacrifices had to be made. Other sacrifices had to be made this morning so I could stick my head out the window while attempting to park at the post office, yelling to the attendant emptying the big blue box 'hey is the office closed yet?' Luckily she told me I had two minutes to spare. :) Thank goodness! Those other sacrifices made were the fact that I was running around like a mad woman without deodorant, my toothbrush ran a maximum of 30 seconds in my mouth, and I had a little rock in my shoe that I just didn't have time to remove. I'm thinking the post woman was scared to tell me they were closed because I probably looked like a crazy woman!

With stamps in hand and envelopes enroute to their desired location, I was off to the ATM machine to deposit the 3 checks I received in the mail! They were two cents shy of a hundred combined, but these days I would even make time to deposit a check for those two cents!

When I left the house it was 62 and sunny. After hitting up the post office, the bank, two stores and the gas station, I returned home in cloudy, breezy 57 degree weather with rain clouds on the horizon. In my world, that makes for the perfect afternoon to lay down for a nap...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 13, 16
Just getting started: 5, 6, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20
Needs attention: 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 14, 15, 21, 22, 23, 24

Wishful Thinking...

As every weekend starts approaching I have this dream...a dream of not needing to leave the house again after I come home from seeing my guy and grocery shopping Friday night until I have to return to work on Monday. But this is never the reality. Why can't all of the places I need to go to while running errands be open 24 hours from Friday through to Saturday? If only... Just some wishful thinking going on here.

Some positive news though...I had a great day and a fantastic visit with my guy and then came home to find more checks in my mailbox than bills. That is always a positive in my book!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 13, 16
Just getting started: 4, 5, 6, 12, 18, 19, 20*
Needs attention: 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 14, 15, 17, 21, 22, 23, 24

*~~Thanks to Blaez! Love ya girl...

Friday, April 23, 2010

Beyond Happy It Is Friday

I don't think I need to explain why I'm so frickin' happy it is Friday, do I? :) Have a great weekend my peeps!

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Bust my ass at work.
2. Go & see my guy
3. Write out my grocery list
4. Go shopping
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. Write out my bills
8. Balance my checkbook
9. Type up my E&T notes
10. Start studying for my E&T final
11. File my papers
12. Catch up on my emails
13. Catch up on my TIVO
14. Write my guy
15. Workout
16. Replace my yard light light-bulb
17. Get me some sleep
18. Continue to attempt to relax/reduce my stress level
19. Start preparing for the munchkin's first communion & my parent's 25th wedding anniversary party
20. Refocus with WWs
21. Refocus for next week
22. Plan out my week
23. Get organized
24. Get my shit together

Thursday, April 22, 2010

How About That

I'm down to 4 emails to go! 3 I'll take care of tomorrow morning, I hope and the last one is a coupon to order a bathing suit for memorial day weekend. YIKES!!!!

Good night y'all!

Still Fighting The Funk

I feel like I barely survived this week...but I did survive so that is good! I was so tired tonight that by 8pm I was totally ready for bed. I could have crawled in and called it a day, but as you know I didn't. Instead I've just kind of relaxed a bit and hope to be in the bed by 11pm. I'm so looking forward to this weekend and hope to get more things done than I did this week, but I'm also hopeful that it leads to a much better week!

I am happy to report that my munchkin made it through a day of school with no bad reports coming home to me. Of course I requested a meeting with the "powers that be" and asked that they give me a convenient day and time next week. Have I received such info? Nope! Well, I can only do so much on my end!

I know when I sat down to write this post I had a great idea of what to write, but apparently I forgot what I wanted to share. Oh well...that is the story of my week! But I will admit that I continue to fight against the funk...I am stronger than it! My week didn't go as planned, but so what! It is what it is and I will win!

Consider it done: 1, 4, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 21, 23, 24, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 2, 3, 14, 17, 29, 30
Needs attention: 8, 9, 22, 25

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

And The Hits Just Keep On Coming.

Happy to report that my boil is slowly reabsorbing into the area, which is good. Each day it feels better and better.

Sad to report that apparently my son cannot get his shit together and I had to leave work around noon today to pick his little ass up for getting in trouble at school, again. I know he is not happy at this new school and I'm beginning to wonder if he is trying to get transferred back to his old school. I'm not sure. I wish I had the answers. On the bright side he did ask me to call his therapist from last year and make an appointment for him. I told him consider it done. Of course this was after my anger bubbled over into tears and I laid down the law and enforced the threatened punishment that I had laid out last week. Yes, I foolishly had told him last Thursday that should he get suspended again he would not be able to watch TV or be on the computer for 30 days. I normally wouldn't have given such a long punishment, but it was just 6 days earlier that I had used that as a threat...what's a girl to do? Needless to say it was a quiet afternoon here with him writing a punishment sentence 100 times, folding a basket of clothes (his idea, not mine) with no TV.

Obviously I must report that my week is not going as planned. I planned to workout last night, but didn't due to my boil and I had planned on studying tonight after work but didn't due to my exhaustion resulting from the stress of refraining from inflicting corporal punishment on the love of my life...

Oh yeah...I currently have 118 emails in my in-box to read, respond and/or delete. So if you haven't heard from me in some time this could be why. Feeling a little overwhelmed and I'm not sure if I'll get to these until this weekend. I haven't wanted Friday to roll around so quickly in quite some time...

Consider it done: 1, 4, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 21, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 2, 3, 14, 17, 24, 29, 30
Needs attention: 8, 9, 22, 23, 25

Monday, April 19, 2010

I've Got A What? Where?

About 3:30pm today I started not feeling so hot. I felt sick to my stomach with a wicked headache. Instead of working until 6pm so I could leave early Thursday I decided to go back to my usual 8am-4:30pm schedule and booked out an hour later. Since on my list for today was to go grocery shopping after work and I felt horrible, thinking no one would be at the house I opted to come home to take a little nap before heading off to the store.

I was surprised when I pulled in and my aunt and the munchkin were at the house. It didn't stop me though...I walked in and went straight to bed. I was out like a light in minutes and didn't wake up until almost 8pm. Knowing I had to get a few things I took off to the grocery store around 9pm. Picked up the necessities to make it till the weekend, filled up the tank and came on back home.

By the time I got back home I could hardly walk without pain. I thought I just had a spot in another more personal spot that was raw or something. I quickly discovered that it was more than just raw...I have a boil in an area that you would never want a boil. Go figure! Of course I would get a boil that makes it hurt when I walk or sit... :( Maybe I should have just kept sleeping this afternoon instead of making sure the kid and I had food, huh?!

Consider it done: 1, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 2, 3, 4, 17, 21, 24, 29, 30
Needs attention: 8, 9, 14, 22, 23, 25

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Funk No More

I refuse to allow myself to go down that path of funk! I refuse!! Funk, do you hear me?!? I refuse to allow you in any further. You are NOT wanted here!

And after a wonderful weekend of doing very little and accomplishing my goals to Rest, Relax, Refocus & Rejuvenate, I am ready to take it all on again!

Maybe I didn't get as much done this weekend as I should have and I will be starting this week out behind the 8-ball, so to speak, but I am starting the week rested, relaxed, refocused and rejuvenated!

Oh yeah...and I'm starting it at almost my lowest point yet in my battle of the bulge! I totally rock!! In another .4lbs and I'll be back to my lowest. I remain positive that I shall hit that at least in the next week. I know I won't make my next goal, but whatever...I'll roll with it. That is what we do, right? We roll with the punches...

Today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs
Current weight (today): 318.0lbs
This week's results: -5.0lbs
Total weight lost: 45.0lbs

Consider it done: 1, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 2, 3, 4, 17, 21, 24, 29, 30
Needs attention: 8, 9, 14, 22, 23, 25

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Family Expectations

I saw something today that made me start to think about parenting and even more so about my parents and how I was parented as a child...

I think I always wanted that fantasy family. Maybe we all did... You know, like the Huxtable's or the Keaton's. (Yes, I'm showing my age!) Not always perfect, but always together. My family is far from perfect and not usually together either. I don't know what it is...is it me? Is it them? Is it the way it is suppose to be?

I've been watching the show Parenthood, which probably brought some of this on. Then a conversation I had after Tuesday night's class with The Preacher's Son reenforced some of these feelings, but then today as I was waiting for my order in the McDonald's drive-thru (not planned, but my blood sugar was dropping and I was on my way to my pampering appointment~~No, seriously!) I saw a mom and daughter team going into my salon, together. Can you believe I've never had that? Never! My mom and I have never went for a girl's day. Isn't that odd? I think it is! Don't you? Do you know what else I think is odd? I've never been shopping with my mom. Never! Don't you find that odd too?

I always wanted to have that "Daddy's Girl" relationship with my dad even though he isn't really my dad. I don't know why I wanted that nor am I sure I wanted it with who my dad is. Maybe the fact that my real dad was never in my life contributed to my desire to have that special relationship with my dad. I don't know. Maybe it was this week's episode of Parenthood where Peter Krause's character went for a bike ride with his daughter on the show played by Sarah Ramos. I have no memory of doing something that was just me and my dad. I cannot even remember a time that I was ever even alone with my dad. I think this too is odd.

As you are probably well aware, especially if you have read this blog for any period of time, I have my own issues with parenting and I am in no way perfect. When things like this, this and this happen with my munchkin I question my ability to parent and it really makes me rethink the plan to have more kids in the future...

I guess I can only hope and pray that my son won't be sitting in front of his computer when he is 33 years old after watching a mom & son bonding moment of someone else thinking about how he was parented and realizing how much we didn't measure up to his family expectations...

Consider it done: 1, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16
Just getting started: 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 17, 18, 19, 20, 24, 27
Needs attention: 5, 8, 9, 10, 14, 21, 22, 23, 25, 26, 28, 29, 30

Friday, April 16, 2010

My Needs: Relax, Refocus, & Rejuvenate!

Even though I have my usual Friday list below, I really have three main goals this weekend: relax, refocus, and rejuvenate! I really need to accomplish these three main goals.

I hope everyone has a spectacular Friday & weekend!

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Go & see my guy
2. Write out my grocery list
3. Go shopping
4. Do laundry
5. Pick up the house
6. Write out my bills
7. Balance my checkbook
8. Type up my E&T homework
9. Start studying for my E&T final
10. Pick up my script
11. Get my bangs trimmed (they are driving me insane)
12. Get my facial done
13. Get waxed
14. File my papers
15. Pick up my dry cleaning
16. Order my munchkin's cake for his 1st Communion
17. Catch up on my emails
18. Catch up on my TIVO
19. Get me some serious sleep (I really, really need it)
20. Relax
21. Do my class evaluations
22. Workout
23. RSVP for my cousin-in-law's baby shower
24. Book a room for the baby shower weekend
25. Replace my yard light light-bulb
26. Refocus with WWs (I have fallen off my wagon and need to get back on!)
27. Refocus for next week
28. Plan out my week
29. Get organized
30. Get my shit together

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Need A Break...

When I planned out this week, I had planned on going to the gym tonight after my last TP class. When I left the house this morning I was a bit undecided as to whether I was going to the gym or not. I really needed to go to the gym, but I also knew if I came straight home after class I would have an hour or so to myself because the munchkin had a CubScout meeting. Of course when I left the house I totally forgot my gym bag. I still thought I would maybe just stop by the house, change and go on to the gym.

I got to work, in a great mood, did a little organizing, and got a few files closed and then 20 minutes before I was set to leave the office to go to my pizza party a/k/a my last TP class I received an email from the munchkin's teacher. My little 7 year-old angel got his ass suspended for tomorrow. :( I do not know all of the details at this moment other than this is the 3rd conduct report for fighting/pushing on the playground and according to their rules he must serve a one day suspension. I was very upset when I received the email. I scrambled to find someone to watch him tomorrow. I started running through scenarios of how I was going to punish him for this. Then I went to my pizza party, got wonderful comments from my fellow classmates and Prof. Arrogance. I really sort of put it out of my mind during those few hours.

By the time I was ready to leave school I knew I had to run to Walgreen's and then fix dinner. The idea of going to the gym was totally off the table in my head. After I fixed dinner, waiting for the munchkin to come home from his meeting, my head and body are telling me...I'm exhausted and I need a break and I was no longer nearly upset as I was several hours earlier...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24
Just getting started: 25, 26
Needs attention: 11

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Consider Classes Done!

So last night I attended my last E&T class! Woo-hoo!! Tonight I attended my last SADO class! A-Frickin'-Men!!!

I cannot be more excited about the above statements. Especially the SADO part. I turned in my brief at 4:39pm. I know I should have worked harder on it. I know I will suffer the consequences for it upon receipt of my grade and hate myself then. BUT I just couldn't deal with it. I came to hate the class and the assignment. Yes, I know in real life I will not always like my assignments and files and the briefs I have to draft and file; however, I will not also have to balance that with 2 other classes, one of which was hell on wheels (TP), and a full-time job.

I think I just hit that wall. You know the one where your brain shuts down and you get to the point where you really don't care anymore. And I don't mean like kind-of not caring, I mean like really not caring! I know I totally suck, but it is what it is!! I can't change it...just deal with the fall-out and pray that everyone else in class who swore they felt the same way f'd up their brief as much as I did! ;)

All I have left to do for school this semester is: attend my TP pizza party tomorrow (woo-hoo!!!) and take my E&T final in about 3 weeks! Totally doable....

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24
Just getting started: 25, 26
Needs attention: 11

Monday, April 12, 2010

Thinking About The Future...

Okay folks...I need to start looking at reordering my planner that will start July 1st for the next year. As this year is going to change quite a bit for me I'm in a dilemma to see which I should order. In the recent years I've been using a planner like this...
Classic Metropolitan Wire-bound Weekly Planner - Jul 10 - Jun 11
*Courtesy of FranklinCovey (http://store.franklinplanner.com/store/category/prod2660038/US-Weekly/Metropolitan-Wire-bound-Weekly-Planner?skuId=35540)

This allowed me to carry a smaller and lighter planner with everything else I carry for school and work.

A long time ago though I carried a planner that accommodated these type of planner pages...
Classic Julie Morgenstern Balanced Life Ring-Bound Daily Planner Refill - Jul 10 - Jun 11
*Courtesy of FranklinCovey (http://store.franklinplanner.com/store/category/prod2020046/US-All-Planners-%26-Refills/Classic-Julie-Morgenstern-Balanced-Life-Ring-bound-Daily-Planner-Refill)

If my next year goes according to plan, by July 1st I will be almost done with my only summer class, getting ready to take the MPRE in August, and preparing for my final semester in law school. My goal for that final semester is to take an externship at the defender's office, 2 additional classes, plus working my regular job (minus a few hours here and there for my externship). God willing my man will be coming home in December plus I'll be preparing to take the bar in February and hopefully finding a job as a real lawyer!

So I ask y'all...which do you think will be more useful to me as my life takes these dramatic twists and turns?

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24
Just getting started: 25, 26
Needs attention: 4, 11, 15

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Are You Ready?

Maybe I should have taken a page out of Legally Fabulous' book here and said I didn't want to talk about my weekly weigh-in today, but ready or not, here we go...

Excuses.
Easter. Stress. Hormones. Inability to control oneself. $600 dinners. Lack of workouts. Constipation.

Results.
Today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs
Current weight (today): 323.0lbs
This week's results: +4.4lbs
Total weight lost: 40.0lbs

Solutions.
Stop eating, especially eating out! Get my ass to the gym!

In other news...
Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24
Just getting started: 25, 26
Needs attention: 4*, 11, 15

*~~Yes, I should be further on this...like maybe I should have at least started this by now, but I haven't. So instead I called my boss and left her a voice mail telling her I am taking tomorrow as a personal day. Yes, I know...not very grown-up of me, but it is what it is!

Amazing

Well, it has been a whirlwind of a weekend thus far! Friday night was overall fantastic!! I wasn't sure how it was going to go when I developed a horrific headache that morning, but I tried to remain positive since I had gotten up at a decent time in order to get ready and look half-way decent! Finally about noon after taking a huge dose of Motrin I figured I would grab lunch out, which has been my MO for the week, and see if that made my head feel better. It actually worked so I was able to get a few things done during the afternoon at work and then before I realized it, it was time to meet up with the family at school and attend the Book Awards!

I don't know if Book Awards are given at every school or if they are called something else, but at my law school they are given out to the top people in each class for the last year's semester and also given to the students that a professor wants to recognize! I thought I was receiving two, but was surprised and only received one. Hey, one is better than none! Of course by the time I went up to be greeted by the Dean he says to me, "First Book Award?" I guess he noticed he had never seen me around these parts before! Of course I responded and said, in typical j'lynn fashion, "Yes and it only took me 4 years to get it!"

The ceremony was over in a blur, I have very little memory of it and couldn't tell you what anyone else received except for two other people~~a friend of mine, RedBull, from class who shocked the shit out of everyone when he received one for Trial Practice (he took it last year) because he is not the type of guy you would expect to win that! When I told MyMormanGirl about it she asked me if he had attended every class session drunk, because that is the only time he is animated! The other guy I recall from the ceremony was the freak who was awarded 6 Book Awards! I was going to say to Holly-Hobby sitting next to me (from my TP class) 'you know that dude isn't getting laid while in school' but then I remembered I'm not either so I left it alone! But as my aunt said afterwards, "That guy who got 6 of them looked like he was all business." No shit! LOL

So after the ceremony, we went across the way to the school for the little reception. That was a bust and we left like 15 minutes after pictures with my LSBFF! On to dinner we went! We went to the top of the city for dinner. It was fantastic. The food was to die for delicious. My steak practically melted in my mouth! We had lobster corn dogs and a lobster/brie dip to start. OMG...the lobster corn dogs were to die for delicious! Then on to salad, which I thought kind of sucked, but everyone else liked theirs. Then the main course! It was yummy, yummy, yummy. I had agreed to pick up the bill and expected it was going to be very expensive, but did almost pass out when it came and it was over $600! Of course the fact that my other aunt and uncle decided to order a bottle of wine on top of their cocktails did not help matters (yes, this was after I said the meal was on me...you know the single mother in school struggling to make ends meet!), but whatever. It was all worth it when on the way home my munchkin said to me that the night was "amazing" and the restaurant we just left at 73 stories up in the sky was "amazing"!!!! FTW!!! ;) I love you baby and that is what I wanted you to have, an amazing experience!

I totally committed a faux pas on one part of the evening...I didn't realize until we had left that I had likely just double tipped our waiter. Before the bill came my other aunt was going on and on and on about how uncomfortable she was and how she had to get out of there. I was feeling the pressure mount because there had already been instances of words being exchanged, albeit in a polite tone, between her and my mom the entire meal. And my aunt was getting to the point with her mouth and her whining and carrying on and physical antics about how uncomfortable she was that I was just thinking~~hurry up, pay the bill before it gets worse. So I quickly figured out 20%, added it on, signed the bill and we left. I refused to look at the bill until Saturday morning to see how much money I just over paid the waiter. When it came to a realization that Eddie had been tipped 39% I just had to keep telling myself, "Pay It Forward!" He could go home that night to his wife and tell her he had a great night! :) He was fantastic and didn't make my parents feel uncomfortable when they asked certain questions or like when my dad said, 'Man, I only eat at truck stops, I don't know what I'm doing.' Eddie was fantastic, patted my dad on the shoulder and said, 'It's all good. I've got your back.' :) So it was worth it and I have to believe that Karma will pay me back for that faux pas! ;)

When the munchkin, aunt and I came home, they took off for her house and I collapsed on the love seat. I made my way to bed soon and died when I hit the pillow. But only a portion of my busy-ass weekend was over! I was up by quarter to eight Saturday morning to get a few things done before we headed off to our Annual Pow-Wow!! :) After running a few errands, we finally made our way up there at about noon. It was very nice. :) Pictures will follow sometime in the future and I'm hoping the new camera took better than these from last year. The best part was...my munchkin had the time of his life! We booked out of there around 3pm and the entire hour plus ride home he went on and on about how he was a little Native American, "every drop counts", and thought that was awesome!! :) He just loves it there! I can't wait to go back next year when I won't have the pressure of school resting on me, making me need to leave early! We can stay the whole damn day if we want! Woo-hoo!!

After we got home, I felt like I needed to get some personal stuff done around the house and in my life. So I spent the rest of yesterday afternoon and all of last night getting things done so I could check off things from my to-do list...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 24
Just getting started: 10, 21, 22, 25, 26
Needs attention: 4, 11, 15, 23

Friday, April 9, 2010

A Bit Of A Change Up!

Due to some scheduling conflicts that I had in my schedule this week, I had to change it up a bit! As you know, Tuesday I had to do my oral argument for SADO, which then left me with no class Wednesday night. But since I have an awards ceremony to attend Friday night (more on that will come in a later post!), I moved my weekly visit with my guy to Wednesday night. This also lead me to having to move up my grocery shopping trip to last night! In addition to all of this, I've completed Trial Practice for all intents and purposes, so you will find that missing from my list of things to-do today!

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Attend my Book Award Ceremony
2. Go to dinner with the family
3. Do all of my E&T homework
4. Do all of my SADO homework
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. Write out my bills
8. Balance my checkbook
9. Attend the annual Pow-Wow
10. Write my guy
11. Workout
12. Dig out my guy's papers and mail them
13. File my papers
14. Get my suits drycleaned
15. Take down the Easter decorations
16. Send out the soccer schedule to the team parents
17. Catch up on my emails
18. Catch up on my TIVO
19. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations
20. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next few months
21. Refocus with WWs
22. Refocus for next week
23. Get me some serious sleep
24. Plan out my week
25. Get organized
26. Get my shit together

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Can I Consider It Over?

So today was the last time I have to participate in Trial Practice! Woo-hoo!! I feel like I had a kick-butt closing argument too. Plus I think I scored points for asking for special jury instructions even though the other two in my group totally disagreed with my interpretation of the jury instructions I requested! (My LSBFF totally agreed with me when I asked her opinion via email!! I love her! Hehehe) However, I do have to attend the class one more time next Thursday. Our assignment for the next class is to review our progress, our strengths, our weaknesses and most importantly, eat pizza and/or subs and wash it down with a little soda! Totally do-able here!! So I ask you, can I consider Trial Practice over for the semester?

On a semi-separate note, I went to the big wig today to ask (or tell...whichever way you want to look at it) about my taking an externship this coming fall. He seemed receptive to the idea, actually supportive. He totally understood the reason why I need to do this and agreed to "run it up the flag pole." So keep your fingers crossed that this works out how I want and come fall semester I will be doing an externship and still have a job!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 29, 30
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Doing More Than Just Surviving

So I did my oral argument tonight and I survived! I actually did more than survived! So thank you for all of your little prayers folks!! There were no tears, no screams, no blood, no vomiting and no passing out.

Do you know what there was though? Redemption for me!! Woo-hoo...

Remember this when Prof. Fergie told me how much I sucked? Well, I argued the couple of issues that I wrote and then the 3 "judges" asked me why I didn't argue my original first issue...you know, the issue that I was told I couldn't argue because it was "based on bad law." Ha!

Take that Prof. Fergie, because your co-workers (a/k/a my judges) told you that you were wrong and I was on the right path all along!

BOOYAH!!!

On a separate account...not only did I notice before I argued my brief that I~~#1) I put a case that kills one of my arguments in my brief; #2) That I misspelled my last name on it; and #3) My inability to spell bleed-over to my blog last night...opps!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28
Just getting started: 7, 29, 30
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22

Monday, April 5, 2010

Saw A Little Prayer For Me...

Rumor has it that tomorrow is going to be brutal on me with my SADO mock argument, so please, please, please say a little prayer for me! This will be taking place between 5:00pm & 7:00pm (EST). I'll take all the help I can get!

In other news, CONGRATULATIONS TO DUKE, THE NCAA MEN'S BASKETBALL CHAMPIONS!!!! Way to go guys! You deserve it! Butler deserves a shout out though too! You guys did something amazing. Be proud of what you've accomplished!!!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 23, 24, 27, 28
Just getting started: 6, 7, 25, 26, 29, 30
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22

Another Late Night~~Hoping for a Kick Ass Week!

Today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs
Current weight (today): 318.6lbs
This week's results: +1.0lbs
Total weight lost: 44.4lbs

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 23, 24, 27, 28
Just getting started: 6, 7, 25, 26, 29, 30
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter

I hope everyone enjoys their Easter Sunday today and gets to spend a wonderful time with their loved ones! Make sure you find all of the eggs the Easter Bunny hid today or else you will be wishing you had in a few days..... ;)

I will be celebrating the holiday later today with the family at my aunt's house this afternoon. Since I'm on cake duty and the first one just broke apart when I tried to stand the damn lamb up I'm back in the kitchen on cake #2....

Love y'all & Happy Easter!!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 9, 17, 18, 23, 24, 27, 28
Just getting started: 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 11, 12
Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 21, 22, 25, 26, 29, 30

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Reflecting on Good Friday

So yesterday was the big day for me. Every Lent I refrain from eating meat on Fridays and the holy grail, so to speak, for me is Good Friday. By now I will have battled "the devil" (a/k/a my cravings for meat) for several weeks on Fridays and not ate any meat. Of course the last several years, I've been very successful with this until Good Friday! It usually seems like I falter come Good Friday. I don't know why...my Nana would always tell me it was because by that day the devil had won! They she would laugh!! I will usually pick something up or go out and order a meal and after taking a bite or half-way through my meal it will dawn on me that it was Good Friday and I "sinned" on the biggest day of all the Fridays cumulative! Go figure!

This year I succeeded and survived without sin on Good Friday. Boy oh boy was it hard yesterday! Especially while sitting at Denny's for hours waiting to go and see my guy, reading Estates & Trusts (of course!), listening to everyone and their brother ordering burgers, wings and steaks. Especially when they would go on and on raving about how great their meat looked and tasted. Thank you non-Catholics and sinners!! Damned be your souls...* But I did it...this year, I did not commit the cardinal sin of consuming meat on Good Friday!**

So yesterday I entered the day with a plan. The plan was to leave work at noon, drive out to where my guy is, sit at Denny's, grab lunch, do some homework, and go in for our visit at 5:00pm instead of the earliest time I could visit, which is for 3:30pm. We suspected that the visiting room would be packed and there was a chance to be terminated early from our visit, so we went with the later time, after his count, so I could stay there until they threw me out at the end of visiting hours. Everything went well with this part of my plan. What I didn't plan for was to walk in the waiting room at quarter to 5 and see a thousand people there! Okay, maybe I exaggerated a bit but there had to have been almost 50 people in the waiting room to go back and visit their loved ones. I later determined that some people had been waiting for up to two hours! I did not get back in the visiting room until 6:30pm! It was crazy!! But hey...I got to see my guy for 2 hours, so it was worth it.*** Then my plan continued with going grocery shopping after my visit, which is my standard Friday night fare.

I also planned today to accomplish two major things in addition to everything else I have to do. Goal #1: Not to leave my house today. Goal #2: To sleep in until I woke up, as in no alarm, no need to be anywhere, nothing other than my body said 'Time to get your butt out of bed!' Well, both of these goals I have failed!

Goal #1: When I discovered that the meat market wasn't going to be open on Easter I had thought I would just go during the week so I didn't have to leave the house Saturday! Ha! They tried to get me out of the house, but I've got "them" beat...I can figure out other ways to get my meat.**** I had even decided I would put off my need for ink and paper to later in the week or see if Staples was open Sunday when I trekked out for my family dinner! However, I did not plan on both Meijers & Wal-Marts not having any dinner rolls Friday night at 10pm. I further did not plan on the worker at Wal-Marts telling me that the rolls would not be in until 5am on Saturday! Ugh!! So needless to say, I will be leaving the house for rolls, ink, paper & of course, some meat!

Goal #2: In an effort to work on #27 from here, I thought I had covered all of my bases to prevent from being awakened by outside interruptions this morning. Well...apparently I failed to change my crackberry to only ring with phone calls when I made my way to bed last night at about 2:15am. I only discovered this when some stupid email coming in a few hours later woke me up. I refused to comply with this little interruption. I adjusted my ringer, rolled over and went back to sleep. Now mind you, my guy was already well aware of the fact that I wanted to sleep in and expected him not to call me at 8:30am unless it was an emergency! My munchkin was with my aunt and they know better than to call me early unless there is an emergency. Well apparently the munchkin's CubScout leader doesn't know better! At 10:16am, my phone rang and woke me up. She was calling to tell me not to bring the munchkin over to Lowe's to sell Scout-A-Rama tickets at 11:00am, because our pack was "screwed-over yet again!" In case you didn't know, there is a lot of drama with regards to Cub & Boy Scouts. The store had booked two competing troops to sell tickets this morning and the woman who was suppose to bring the tickets to the Scout Leader to sell never showed up! Of course!! So after her call I had to wake up enough to call my aunt and tell them "no go" for Lowe's! And it appeared "no go" for Goal #2 for me!


Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 18, 23, 24
Just getting started: 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 12*****, 17, 27
Needs attention: 10, 11, 13, 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 21, 22, 25, 26, 28, 29, 30

*~~I kid y'all! ;) I love all sorts of non-Catholics & sinners! I would never damn anyone's soul...okay barely anyone!
**~~I do not count the lunchable containing ham that I ate at 2:30am Thursday night, because in j'lynn's world that was still my Thursday!!
***~~The things we do for love...
****~~Hmmm...my life seems to be revolving around meat. What's up with that?!?
*****~~You may be asking how I could be "just getting started" with picking up my car from the garage without it being done! Well, let me tell you...I paid for it yesterday, I confirmed it would be ready to pick up this weekend. Now I just need to go and pick it up! But since I have the opportunity to put miles on someone else's car, I'm going to use it (for free) for as long as I can. I will be picking my baby up after tomorrow's Easter dinner when I'm in town!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Freak Out

So I've been in total freak out mode this entire week. Total stress overload. Some of the things I've been stressing out about is: the MPRE, BarBri, the Bar, all of my classes, all of my homework, work, the munchkin... I feel like my mind is spinning so fast that I cannot even complete my list of freak outs! This does not bode well for me... I'm sure the fact that I haven't been to bed before 2:30am any night this week except Monday night. Yes, that means last Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and last night... Can I be any more exhausted?!?

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Leave work at noon (I love Holidays!)
2. Go & see my guy
3. Write out my shopping list
4. Go shopping
5. Do all of my E&T homework
6. Do all of my SADO homework
7. Do all of my Trial Practice homework
8. Do laundry
9. Pick up the house
10. Write out my bills
11. Balance my checkbook
12. Pick up my car from the garage (I hope it is done this weekend!)
13. Write my guy
14. Workout
15. Dig out more of my guy's paperwork and mail it
16. File my papers, which are now 3 weeks behind!
17. Catch up on my emails
18. Catch up on my TIVO
19. Celebrate Easter with the munchkin
20. Have Easter dinner with the family
21. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations
22. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next few months
23. Catch up on reading all of my blogs
24. Catch up on responding to my commenters!
25. Refocus with WWs
26. Refocus for next week
27. Get me some serious sleep, because I really, really, really need it!
28. Plan out my week
29. Get organized
30. Get my shit together

Thursday, April 1, 2010

April Is Coming In Like A Lion

I know that it is suppose to be March that comes in like a Lion and leaves like a Lamb, or so I think! But April has came in like a Lion...which probably isn't too great for me, but here's hoping that it quickly becomes a Lamb!

Consider it done: 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 27, 28, 29, 30, 32, 32, 33, 34, 36, 37, 38, 39
Just getting started: 2, 18, 35*
Needs attention: 16, 17, 25, 26, 40**

*~~If you saw my house or inside my mind right this minute you would quickly tell me that I need to move this back down to "Needs attention"!
**~~Yeah, not even remotely close to having my shit together...talk about a week from hell!