Another Late Night~~Hoping for a Kick Ass Week!

Today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs

Current weight (today): 318.6lbs

This week's results: +1.0lbs

Total weight lost: 44.4lbs

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 23, 24, 27, 28

Just getting started: 6, 7, 25, 26, 29, 30

Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22

Happy Easter

I hope everyone enjoys their Easter Sunday today and gets to spend a wonderful time with their loved ones! Make sure you find all of the eggs the Easter Bunny hid today or else you will be wishing you had in a few days..... ;)

I will be celebrating the holiday later today with the family at my aunt's house this afternoon. Since I'm on cake duty and the first one just broke apart when I tried to stand the damn lamb up I'm back in the kitchen on cake #2....

Love y'all & Happy Easter!!!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 9, 17, 18, 23, 24, 27, 28

Just getting started: 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 11, 12

Needs attention: 13, 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 21, 22, 25, 26, 29, 30

Reflecting on Good Friday

So yesterday was the big day for me. Every Lent I refrain from eating meat on Fridays and the holy grail, so to speak, for me is Good Friday. By now I will have battled "the devil" (a/k/a my cravings for meat) for several weeks on Fridays and not ate any meat. Of course the last several years, I've been very successful with this until Good Friday! It usually seems like I falter come Good Friday. I don't know why...my Nana would always tell me it was because by that day the devil had won! They she would laugh!! I will usually pick something up or go out and order a meal and after taking a bite or half-way through my meal it will dawn on me that it was Good Friday and I "sinned" on the biggest day of all the Fridays cumulative! Go figure!

This year I succeeded and survived without sin on Good Friday. Boy oh boy was it hard yesterday! Especially while sitting at Denny's for hours waiting to go and see my guy, reading Estates & Trusts (of course!), listening to everyone and their brother ordering burgers, wings and steaks. Especially when they would go on and on raving about how great their meat looked and tasted. Thank you non-Catholics and sinners!! Damned be your souls...* But I did it...this year, I did not commit the cardinal sin of consuming meat on Good Friday!**

So yesterday I entered the day with a plan. The plan was to leave work at noon, drive out to where my guy is, sit at Denny's, grab lunch, do some homework, and go in for our visit at 5:00pm instead of the earliest time I could visit, which is for 3:30pm. We suspected that the visiting room would be packed and there was a chance to be terminated early from our visit, so we went with the later time, after his count, so I could stay there until they threw me out at the end of visiting hours. Everything went well with this part of my plan. What I didn't plan for was to walk in the waiting room at quarter to 5 and see a thousand people there! Okay, maybe I exaggerated a bit but there had to have been almost 50 people in the waiting room to go back and visit their loved ones. I later determined that some people had been waiting for up to two hours! I did not get back in the visiting room until 6:30pm! It was crazy!! But hey...I got to see my guy for 2 hours, so it was worth it.*** Then my plan continued with going grocery shopping after my visit, which is my standard Friday night fare.

I also planned today to accomplish two major things in addition to everything else I have to do. Goal #1: Not to leave my house today. Goal #2: To sleep in until I woke up, as in no alarm, no need to be anywhere, nothing other than my body said 'Time to get your butt out of bed!' Well, both of these goals I have failed!

Goal #1: When I discovered that the meat market wasn't going to be open on Easter I had thought I would just go during the week so I didn't have to leave the house Saturday! Ha! They tried to get me out of the house, but I've got "them" beat...I can figure out other ways to get my meat.**** I had even decided I would put off my need for ink and paper to later in the week or see if Staples was open Sunday when I trekked out for my family dinner! However, I did not plan on both Meijers & Wal-Marts not having any dinner rolls Friday night at 10pm. I further did not plan on the worker at Wal-Marts telling me that the rolls would not be in until 5am on Saturday! Ugh!! So needless to say, I will be leaving the house for rolls, ink, paper & of course, some meat!

Goal #2: In an effort to work on #27 from here, I thought I had covered all of my bases to prevent from being awakened by outside interruptions this morning. Well...apparently I failed to change my crackberry to only ring with phone calls when I made my way to bed last night at about 2:15am. I only discovered this when some stupid email coming in a few hours later woke me up. I refused to comply with this little interruption. I adjusted my ringer, rolled over and went back to sleep. Now mind you, my guy was already well aware of the fact that I wanted to sleep in and expected him not to call me at 8:30am unless it was an emergency! My munchkin was with my aunt and they know better than to call me early unless there is an emergency. Well apparently the munchkin's CubScout leader doesn't know better! At 10:16am, my phone rang and woke me up. She was calling to tell me not to bring the munchkin over to Lowe's to sell Scout-A-Rama tickets at 11:00am, because our pack was "screwed-over yet again!" In case you didn't know, there is a lot of drama with regards to Cub & Boy Scouts. The store had booked two competing troops to sell tickets this morning and the woman who was suppose to bring the tickets to the Scout Leader to sell never showed up! Of course!! So after her call I had to wake up enough to call my aunt and tell them "no go" for Lowe's! And it appeared "no go" for Goal #2 for me!

I ask again...Why do I even attempt to plan things?!?

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 18, 23, 24

Just getting started: 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 12*****, 17, 27

Needs attention: 10, 11, 13, 14, 15, 16, 19, 20, 21, 22, 25, 26, 28, 29, 30

*~~I kid y'all! ;) I love all sorts of non-Catholics & sinners! I would never damn anyone's soul...okay barely anyone!

**~~I do not count the lunchable containing ham that I ate at 2:30am Thursday night, because in j'lynn's world that was still my Thursday!!

***~~The things we do for love...

****~~Hmmm...my life seems to be revolving around meat. What's up with that?!?

*****~~You may be asking how I could be "just getting started" with picking up my car from the garage without it being done! Well, let me tell you...I paid for it yesterday, I confirmed it would be ready to pick up this weekend. Now I just need to go and pick it up! But since I have the opportunity to put miles on someone else's car, I'm going to use it (for free) for as long as I can. I will be picking my baby up after tomorrow's Easter dinner when I'm in town!

Freak Out

So I've been in total freak out mode this entire week. Total stress overload. Some of the things I've been stressing out about is: the MPRE, BarBri, the Bar, all of my classes, all of my homework, work, the munchkin... I feel like my mind is spinning so fast that I cannot even complete my list of freak outs! This does not bode well for me... I'm sure the fact that I haven't been to bed before 2:30am any night this week except Monday night. Yes, that means last Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and last night... Can I be any more exhausted?!?

My Friday To-Do List:

1. Leave work at noon (I love Holidays!)

2. Go & see my guy

3. Write out my shopping list

4. Go shopping

5. Do all of my E&T homework

6. Do all of my SADO homework

7. Do all of my Trial Practice homework

8. Do laundry

9. Pick up the house

10. Write out my bills

11. Balance my checkbook

12. Pick up my car from the garage (I hope it is done this weekend!)

13. Write my guy

14. Workout

15. Dig out more of my guy's paperwork and mail it

16. File my papers, which are now 3 weeks behind!

17. Catch up on my emails

18. Catch up on my TIVO

19. Celebrate Easter with the munchkin

20. Have Easter dinner with the family

21. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations

22. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next few months

23. Catch up on reading all of my blogs

24. Catch up on responding to my commenters!

25. Refocus with WWs

26. Refocus for next week

27. Get me some serious sleep, because I really, really, really need it!

28. Plan out my week

29. Get organized

30. Get my shit together

April Is Coming In Like A Lion

I know that it is suppose to be March that comes in like a Lion and leaves like a Lamb, or so I think! But April has came in like a Lion...which probably isn't too great for me, but here's hoping that it quickly becomes a Lamb!

Consider it done: 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 27, 28, 29, 30, 32, 32, 33, 34, 36, 37, 38, 39

Just getting started: 2, 18, 35*

Needs attention: 16, 17, 25, 26, 40**

*~~If you saw my house or inside my mind right this minute you would quickly tell me that I need to move this back down to "Needs attention"!

**~~Yeah, not even remotely close to having my shit together...talk about a week from hell!

Deep Movies

I have a coupon from DirectTV for a free movie if I "buy" two. Of course it expired today, so I had to get my last movie in before midnight. I settled on Brothers, which was fantastic! I cried, a lot, and came to realize that Jake G. is a hottie!!

This must be my month for deep movies because all three that go towards this coupon have been deep and sad. First it was Precious, then it was The Blind Side earlier this week and tonight, Brothers.

Hmmm...am I picking movies because I need a good cry or am I picking movies that reflect my mood of late? You be the judge!

I do recommend all three of these picks, but you may want to have a tissue handy, or if you are like me...just bring the whole damn box out!

Consider it done: 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 36, 37, 38, 29

Just getting started: 1, 2, 18, 35

Needs attention: 16, 17, 25, 26, 40

Where Did All Those Wrappers In My Garbage Come From?

You would think with a surprising weight loss this week I would have been able to keep it together, but I fell off the wagon tonight. Apparently I was on a one-woman's mission to eat our entire vending machine stock tonight! I haven't purchased anything out of our vending machine in months. Seriously I cannot remember the last time I succumbed to the pull of ourvending machine. After scarfing down a bag of BBQ chips, 2 packages of peanut M&M's, and a Snicker's bar I felt horrible! Not just about the fact that I consumed more crappy food than 4 people should consume in a day, but physically I felt horrible.

What was I doing?!? Ugh! I couldn't stop myself. I'm not even sure if I chewed anything. I was just sitting there "working" (which means playing solitary), shoveling crap into my pudgy little mouth. What was I thinking?!? I wish I could answer these questions, but I can't. Maybe it was because I was tired. Maybe it was because I'm totally stressed. Maybe it was because I'm craving crap and my last two attempts to eat crap (a chips & salsa trip proved unsuccessful with my choice of tacos as they had no taste whatsoever; and our dinner out Saturday for yummy pizza failed with crappy tasting pizza) have failed. I think I'll make burritos tomorrow night, which won't be total crap but should be tasty. Maybe...maybe...maybe... I don't know why I did it. I just can't let it continue. I was successful to stay out of the drive-thru on the way home after class though, but boy oh boy I really wanted a whopper too!

Before I consume any more calories today I'm going to go to bed now. Plus I need to pull close to a couple of all nighters in the next two days. Wish me luck y'all!

Consider it done: 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 19, 20, 21, 22, 24, 31, 32, 33, 34, 36, 27, 28, 29

Just getting started: 1, 2, 3, 18, 27, 28, 35

Needs attention: 16, 17, 23, 25, 26, 29, 30, 40

3rd Place~~Way To Go Baby!!

Yesterday we attended the munchkin's Pine Wood Derby (Cub Scouts!) and the munchkin did so great! Not only was he so well behaved that I was beyond impressed, he also took 3rd place!!!! Way to go Munchkin! I'm so proud of you baby!! :) Now we wait and he competes at Scout-A-Rama in May against the other packs! :) Oh yeah, and he gets his picture in the paper too!!

As for the rest of the folks at Pine Wood Derby, can we say "out-of-control"? Let me back up for a minute...the munchkin's pack is based out of his school, so the majority of kids attend the same school. There is something wrong at this new school we are attending...no body is on birth control!!! I'm telling you, I've never seen such large families. Yes, I'm serious. We feel out of place only having one child! I swear there is no family smaller than 3 kids! And we aren't talking like have one, wait a few years have another one. We are talking stepping stones! Like have one, 9 months another, and 9 months after that another and on and on up to the one in the oven being carried around! It is crazy. And this leads to major issues for me!

Personal issues aside (yes, I want more kids and hopefully in a few years my guy and I will have 1 or 2 more), my major issue is when you have 3-4 other children on top of the child involved in Cub Scouts you are still required to watch them! I know...sounds crazy, right?! I being serious though folks...you must watch all of your kids! Not just the one participating! Okay, as a single parent of one child I can understand giving a single parent of multiple kids a bit of a break, but that isn't what happened yesterday! It was kids with both parents in attendance that were not being watched. WTH?!? I'm sorry...I get out of control kids~~my son is usually one of them. But at least I have my eyes on him and am willing to "take him out" when necessary! So parents...either we need to learn about birth-control or keeping eyes on our kids or as my aunt, the nun, said~~both!!

As for my usual Sunday affair, I weighed in this morning and was pleasantly surprised. I don't know how it happened that I went down, especially since I tried to cheat myself yesterday and weighed in before I took off to the dealer to get an estimate for the damage to my car and it said that I gained like 3lbs! Okay...maybe not that much, more like 2.8lbs. The one good thing about the fact that I did that yesterday was that I didn't gorge myself on Chinese food like I was thinking of doing last night. And I can't say that today's results were changed as a result of what I did in the prior 24hours because I even had the same exact clothes on when I weighed both times since yesterday's late nap turned into a night's sleep when I didn't wake up until 6am today! Guess I really needed some sleep! But getting 13 hours of it on a Saturday night wasn't the plan! Opps!! So needless to say I anticipated at least a 3lb gain and was ecstatic when I actually got a 1.4lb loss!! Yay me!! All it did was help me refocus on my goal of getting below 300lbs a-sap!!

Without further ado, today's stats:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs

Current weight (today): 317.6lbs

This weeks results: -1.4lbs

Total weight lost: 45.4lbs

Consider it done: 4, 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 19, 20, 21, 22, 24, 31, 32, 33, 34, 36, 37, 38, 39

Just getting started: 1, 2, 3, 7, 15, 27, 28, 35

Needs attention: 16, 17, 18, 23, 25, 26, 29, 30, 40

Trying To Put It Back Together

The "it" is me. I am trying to put me back together. I've been on a downward spiral for some time now. I know it. I don't know if I didn't want to admit it or change it or what, but I've been in a rut. But the problem with being in a rut and not changing it is that it just keeps getting deeper.

However, yesterday...actually late last night/very early this morning...I don't know what happened but I started to feel that urge. You know, the urge that I have to pull myself out of this rut or else the consequences are going to be even worse than what I'm dealing with right now. Of course when this happens I start to wonder why I'm doing this. Is it just me? Is it something I'm doing? Why do I allow this to happen? Why can't I stop it before the spiraling begins?

I guess I'm just happy that I still have the ability to pull myself out before it gets too bad and try not to think if this part will ever change...

My Friday To-Do List:

1. Do all of my SADO homework

2. Do all of my E&T homework

3. Do all of my Trial Practice homework

4. Go & see my guy

5. Write out my shopping list

6. Go shopping

7. Do laundry

8. Pick up the house

9. Write out my bills

10. Balance my checkbook

11. Drop off the munchkin's script

12. Pick up both of our scripts

13. Get an oil change

14. Get an estimate on the damage to my car

15. Write my guy

16. Workout

17. Dig out more of my guy's paperwork and mail it

18. File this week & last week's papers

19. Catch up on my emails

20. Catch up on my TIVO

21. Pick out an outfit for me for Easter & for my Book Award's ceremony

22. Make my reservations for the Book Award's ceremony

23. Make reservations for after the Book Award's ceremony

24. Finish picking up supplies for the Easter Bunny

25. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations

26. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next several months

27. Research taking the MPRE this August

28. Research the Kaplan classes for the MPRE

29. Research the BarBri classes for the Bar

30. Call for my room for the bar next year

31. Verify the contents of the CDs I received from the pics developed a couple weeks ago

32. Attend the munchkin's Pine Wood Derby

33. Exchange my lancets

34. Begin working on my April Budget

35. Get organized

36. Refocus with WWs

37. Refocus for next week

38. Get me some serious sleep

39. Plan out my week (it is going to be a busy one!)

40. Get my shit together

3 Becomes 2

I had so many files to close on my desk at the start of this week that I had 3 piles. I am happy to report that I am down to 2 piles. Yay me!! I won't be getting any more files off my desk the rest of the week because I only have 4 hours to put in tomorrow and then I'm done till next week! Thank goodness!!

As for school...well, I just need to get through 2 more classes this week and a client interview, then the hard work really begins this week. So much to do, so little time to do it!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 11, 12, 13, 18, 21, 22, 24, 28, 29

Just getting started: 8, 15, 20, 26, 27

Needs attention: 7, 10, 14, 16, 17, 19, 23, 25, 30

Come On Already!

I was definitely feeling better this morning when I got up, so off to work I went. I busted my tail all day too. I'm losing almost 2.5 days this week at work, so I need to pick up the pace while I am there. By early afternoon I had a killer headache, but I continued to push my way through, plus I had my writing conference scheduled for this afternoon and had class to attend tonight.

I arrived at my writing conference early, of course, only to feel like a complete and total worthless jack-ass, loser and failure all rolled into one within 15 minutes of arriving to Prof. Fergie's office and her informing me that my entire first issue was based on bad law. Opps! My bad! Nothing makes you feel like a failure then when your professor says, "This was bad. Very, very bad." No shit Sherlock Holmes! And trust me, there is no need to ask, "What would have happened if this was filed?" First of all, if this was totally real and I didn't have you to be my watch dog I would have done much more work on my first draft...isn't that why I'm still a student and you are not? And isn't that why it is a first draft? Yes, I know I should have done better, I know that I should have worked harder and obviously I should have performed better research. Duh! But guess what Prof. Fergie...you revealed to me that 2 of the other 4 students haven't turned in anything yet and we are like in week 12 (out of 15). At least I tried and failed instead of not tried at all! Don't I get credit for that?!

When I left my conference my headache was killer, but I still summoned my courage and went on to E&T for class. I really tried to put my gigantic failure behind me, but when we spent the last 15 minutes of class going over details of our final my now non-existant headache (amen for Motrin & Diet Coke) had emerged into nausea...

I knew this was going to be a doozy of a week, but come on already!

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 11, 12, 13, 18, 21

Just getting started: 8, 15, 20, 24, 26, 28, 29

Needs attention: 7, 10, 14, 16, 17, 19, 22, 23, 25, 27, 30

Gearing Up For A Doozy Of A Week

So I took my nap yesterday for a little over 2 hours and felt tons better, but when I attempted to get up for work this morning I just didn't have it in me. I felt icky and blah, so I opted to call in and go back to bed. My guy called me a little before 8am and apparently all I did was repeat his sentences back to him! I later told him that at least he knows I was listening and paying attention. ;) After we finished our conversation I immediately rolled over and was back in la-la land.

Around noon I rolled out of bed, definitely feeling better, sickness wise, but definitely not motivation wise. Around 1pm I was starting to feel like I may get my motivation back and get something accomplished. This was quickly adjusted when the call came in that I needed to pick up the munchkin from school as he was running a fever, complaining that he felt like his eye-balls were on fire. So I pulled myself together as quickly as possible and went and picked him up. We immediately went into the pediatrician who said he was suffering from allergies and nothing more. Thank goodness he doesn't have a sinus infection or upper-respiratory thing.

Of course this unexpected trip around town didn't help out my motivation today. I think I logged a couple hours playing solitary on my cell, watched a few hours of TV, and made sure that my love-seat cushion never felt lonely. Needless to say...this week is gonna be a doozy.

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 11, 12, 13, 21

Just getting started: 8, 15, 20, 24, 26, 28, 29

Needs attention: 7, 10, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 23, 25, 27, 30

...Or My Weekend

Today's stats are:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs

Current weight (today): 319.0lbs

This weeks results: -1.6lbs

Total weight lost: 44lbs

The above and the fact that I got to see my guy this morning is the good news of the day. Now for the bad news...I woke up feeling like crap today! :( I put it out of my mind while I got ready and hit the road at 8am to go see my honey. I even put it out of my mind while we had our visit, but once I got in the car to make my trek back home I could no longer ignore it. So, I drove straight to Urgent Care and picked up drugs...sinus infection, upper respiratory infection.

Doesn't it just figure. Between being sick and my March Madness bracket tanking with each game played (thanks Kansas, Gonzaga, Villanova and Georgia Tech!), my excitement from seeing my guy and breaking out of my mental block is stunted. Add that on top of my lack of motivation, as you can see below, is severely suffering.

I think there is only one thing left to do...take a nap...

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 11, 12, 13, 21

Just getting started: 8, 15, 20, 24, 26, 28, 29

Needs attention: 7, 10, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 23, 25, 27, 30

Just Not My Day

This actually started yesterday. I kicked ass at work, couldn't wait to get on the road to go and see my man, and after fighting horrible traffic for over an hour my smile turned into a pissed off face in a heart-beat when I was denied my visit with my guy. I so did not need the drama!

They wouldn't let me in because of "designer holes" in my jeans. It violates their policy of "clothes that are in good repair." Okay...I dig your standard MDOC; however, what I find a bit odd is the fact that this has been the policy ever since I've been going to one of your facilities since May 2008 and these same jeans I've worn on several occasions to 3 different facilities with no problem. For Christ's Sake I wore the same fucking jeans 6 days prior with no problem.

I demanded to see the Shift Commander. After 2 hours of waiting, she finally graces me with her presence. I found this uber convenient since if she had approved my visit it would have been too late to allow me in, because you are denied entry should there only be 30 minutes left to visit. Nice, huh?

Don't worry Ms. Shift Commander, I know how your world operates. I think you thought I would go away when you told Ms. Front Desk CO that you couldn't see me right away. But sorry, it had became a matter of principle at that point. I didn't care if I had to stand there all frickin' night...you were going to come out and see me. I also didn't care when you told Ms. Front Desk CO to tell me you still weren't going to approve my visit. Maybe not, but you sure as shit were going to have to come out and meet me. I also suspect that you thought you were going to come out and find some 'floozy waitin' to see her man.' But you didn't, did you?! My God, some of the people within your custody do have loved ones with an education who know how to speak in complete sentences and know how to conjugate their verbs...how about that ma'am. You also didn't even know how to act when I required an introduction after introducing myself, did you?! Hmmm...surprising, isn't it...like I said, 'Don't worry Ms. Shift Commander, I know how your world operates.' And since that world operates on my voting back and under my tax paying dimes, I know how your world operates and a tax-paying voter with nothing but a macbook and a brain can enter your world through letters. Like I promised you last night, my letters are in the mail to the necessary people. You too have a good day, Ms. Shift Commander!

Of course after I drove another hour plus home, I had no desire to go grocery shopping nor any desire to do anything else for that matter. I was in the bed by 12:30am, but back up again at 4:00am running to the restroom like a crazy woman. I was in such pain and misery. I just wanted to cry at some point during the night...I don't know if it was all of my anger and frustration from earlier in the night acting up or what, because it certainly wasn't anything I ate. :( I am hopeful that maybe this middle of the night bathroom visit will push me past my mental block that I've been holding on to for so long now. (Keep your fingers crossed for tomorrow for me y'all!)

I've felt blah all day today and can't seem to get much done, but I'm trying. Of course the fact that I will be making another trip up tomorrow morning into the bowels of hell just grinds my ass, because it shouldn't have came to this! Jerks!!

Consider it done: 1, 3, 6, 9*, 13, 21

Just getting started: 2, 5, 8, 24, 28, 29

Needs attention: 4, 7, 10, 11, 12, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 29, 20, 22, 23, 25, 26, 27, 30

*~~Did you even notice that there wasn't a #9 on my list of things to do? I sure didn't until just now. LOL

Starting To Feel The Pressure From All Sides

I am definitely feeling the pressure. It is coming from all over. It is coming from school, work, home...

Yesterday I had to give a closing argument in Trial Practice. I prepared nothing! I was hopeful that I would have time before class to get something together and it just didn't happen. So I did the only thing I could...I made quick notes of facts on my paper and went up when I had to. I received no feedback after I finished, so I sat down and wondered how I did. I spent the next 2.5 hours wondering. It wasn't until we were all walking out of class did I finally receive my feedback, "j'lynn very well done." Well, thank you Prof. Arrogance! ;)

I then hauled my exhausted ass on to E&T. I was unprepared. My contacts were so blurry from sleeping in them the night before that I felt like I was drunk. I was starving. I crazily only counted one case in our reading material and when someone told me 10 minutes before class that there were a total of 4 cases I knew things weren't going to go well for me in class. As we got ready to move on to the last case, I finished quickly scanning it (just in case), took a bite of apple with peanut butter and blinked at my contacts. After about 5 people being called on, one person confessing he wasn't prepared and the other 4 not responding because they were absent, my name was called. Of course!! I had a mouth full of apple and peanut butter, go figure. I muddled and mumbled my way through and 3 minutes later class was over fifty minutes early!

I survived another Thursday at school and came home. Once I was home I started to feel the pressure of all of the school work I need to accomplish in the next week. :( I think even if I did homework for 48 hours straight I couldn't get it all done.

I usually haul a bunch of homework with me to work in the hopes that time will stop while I'm there and I can do some homework! Ha! Yes, I am delusional!

Thursdays I leave work at 1pm, so I always try and check my work email to see what I missed and what I'm headed into come Friday morning. When I opened my email and saw that I had a ton of "rush" work added to my current work, which is stacked in 3-18 inch high piles I decided to pull everything out of my work bag for today. I desperately need to get things at work under control in the next week!! It is no longer an option...it is a requirement for me!

Of course all of this was on top of getting ready to walk out the door yesterday morning, late of course, and receiving an email from my son's teacher telling me we have to meet next week. Mind you, there is already a standard second parent/teacher conference set for us at 6:15pm Monday, March 29, 2010. Apparently my munchkin is being accused of punching another little boy in the privates during recess. My munchkin maintains his innocence. I was so upset with the whole thought of having to deal with this I left the house upset and didn't tell the munchkin that I love him. Then I felt horrible!! It took 5 phone calls to the house and to my mom's cell to get him on the phone to tell him I loved him and to have a great day! I felt a little better, but was still upset. After three emails back and forth and the fact that the only time I could meet with his teacher was next Friday morning at 7am (next week is crazy busy for me!) she agreed to keep our currently scheduled meeting the following Monday evening...

Oh yeah...and my guy called twice and both times he was down and wasn't having a good day. :( Weren't we all having a bad day? Where is the moon and Jupiter yesterday, because the totality of the circumstances lead me to believe they were out of whack!

Do I even need to say it? TGIF y'all!!

My Friday To-Do List:

1. Bust my ass at work for 8 full hours!

2. Go and see my guy

3. Write out my shopping list

4. Go shopping

5. Do laundry

6. Pick up the house

7. Do all of my E&T homework

8. Do all of my SADO homework

10. Do all of my Trial Practice homework

11. Write out my bills

12. Balance my checkbook

13. Get my hair cut

14. Workout

15. Write my guy

16. Dig out more paperwork that my guy needs and mail it

17. File this week's papers

18. Catch up on my emails

19. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations

20. Get ready for Easter

21. Take down the St. Patrick's Day decorations

22. Put up Easter decorations

23. Continue preparing for all of the things we have coming up in the next several months.

24. Catch up on my TIVO

25. Get organized

26. Refocus to tighten my belt with regards to following WWs

27. Refocus for next week

28. Get me some serious sleep (I am so exhausted this week my whole body is achy!)

29. Plan out my week

30. Get my shit together

Happy St. Paddy's Day!

I wish I was drinking Green Beer at one of our many local Irish Pubs in or around the city! I am unsure if this is the wee-bit of Irish in my blood speaking or if it is because by 10:00am I was annoyed enough at people at work that I wanted to shuttle my arse to the closest pub around!

Have a pleasant St. Patrick's Day! Enjoy, have fun, but be safe too!!

PS: Don't forget to give the Irish in your life a kiss today to keep them Irish Eyes a Smiling! :)

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22, 23, 24, 25, 27, 28, 29, 30
Just getting started: 8, 9, 10
Needs attention: 15, 21, 26

In a crazy good mood 4 no reason!

That was my BBM status today!

I don't know why, but all day I seemed to be in a crazy good mood. There really is no reason for me to be in a good mood. Maybe it was the sunshine. Maybe it was the warmer temps. Maybe it was the crazy dream I had last night. Maybe it was the wonderful conversations I shared with my honey twice today! :) Maybe it is the fact that I'm having dinner with my LSBFF tomorrow night! Maybe it was nothing!

But as I told MyMormonGirl, "I am...and I shouldn't b! Oh well! Ill enjoy it while it lasts!"

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22, 23, 24*, 27**, 28***, 29, 30

Just getting started: 8, 9, 10, 25****

Needs attention: 15, 21, 26

*~~Okay, so I'm hoping the 3rd pty vendor that I had to report my "claim" to that couldn't match me up with just my membership number and not my policy number just throws the stuff out. For some stupid reason when I hung from her to go out in search of my "policy number" I decided to call a couple of places to get a price range. Um...yeah, so one shop was like $376 and the other one was like $265. Since my deductible is $500 I'm so going to pay out of pocket for this "replacement" windshield. Please oh please no-fault gods...don't link this up!! :)

**~~I'm doing pretty good so far this week, but it is only Tuesday! I'm hopeful I can bring home a winning weigh in on Sunday!!

***~~I'm as focused as I'm going to get...I'm moving painstakingly slow, but hey...I'm moving!

****~~Alright, we are moving along on this...slowly, but we will see if my follow up email worked today!

A Little Organizing Going On From Time To Time

In the last couple of months, I've continued what I started here. In an effort to clean out and organize a few areas in my life and home I organized and cleaned out two more areas. My panties drawer and under the master bath sink. Both of these areas came to my attention by way of chance.

Several weeks ago while doing laundry and putting my clothes away I came to discover that I couldn't stick any more underwear in my drawer! Crazy, isn't it?! When I did my bi-annual shopping trip last October, I picked up some new panties. Not only because it was fun, but because I was in serious need of smaller ones! (Yay! If only I could say I could use smaller ones again would I be super happy!) I opted to purchase them a couple sizes smaller than the pants I bought, but I failed to throw out any of my old ones at that time. So when I couldn't fit all of them in the drawer, I decided it was time to throw some underwear out! I ended up throwing out 29 pairs of underwear! Yes, I said that correctly~~29!!! I left myself 13 pairs. Who the heck needs 42 pairs of underwear at one time??? Needless to say, I definitely needed to clean this drawer out. It was like its own little country or fire hazard!

Next came a few weeks later when looking for something in the bathroom. One minute I'm looking for something, the next minute my mom is ridiculing me for having hair dye that is older than my munchkin (he'll be 8 in June!) under my sink! Before I knew it, I was cleaning out and reorganizing the area under my master bath sink! Six boxes of hair dye were tossed out and eight cosmetic bags were removed and relocated to be used for future gifts. Apparently every time my makeup brand has a sale that includes that "free" bag with little goodies in it I am in need of makeup and am a sucker and get that "free" bag for $29.95!

Can anyone guess what the chicks in my family are getting for Christmas this year?! LOL

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22, 23, 29, 30

Just getting started: 8, 25, 27, 28

Needs attention: 9, 10, 15, 21, 24, 26*

*~~Obviously this is not the organizing I need to do to stop feeling all out of sorts lately! Go figure!

Today On The Losing Side Of One Of My Battles

I am so frustrated with myself! Ugh! I made a few mistakes this week in my diet and I payed the price. Now I am even further away from my mini-goal. I'm disappointed with myself and frustrated beyond belief.

I gained .6lbs. WTF?!?

I ate cookies that I shouldn't have this week (stupid work!) and I ate out more than I anticipated (stupid work! stupid life!) and mother nature knocked at the end of the week and is still beating down my door today (stupid mother nature!) and the list of excuses could go on and on... But I really have no one to blame other than myself!

The reality is I need to work harder. The other reality is...this mental block is tougher than I originally thought.

It didn't help that both times I got on the scale this morning the first number that popped up was a 4lb loss (I was so utterly excited) and then it immediately went to a .6lb gain (I was so utterly disgusted & disappointed). Ugh!

Today's stats are:

Starting weight (7/8/09): 363.0lbs

Current weight (today): 320.6lbs

This weeks results: +.6lbs

Total weight lost: 42.4lbs

So I must do better this week. Mind over matter, right?

Consider it done: 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 23, 29, 30

Just getting started: 5, 20, 25, 27, 28

Needs attention: 8, 9, 10, 14, 15, 21, 24, 26

Better Late Than Never!

My Friday To-Do List:
1. Leave work early
2. Take the munchkin to the dentist for a filling
3. Write out my shopping list
4. Go shopping
5. Do laundry
6. Pick up the house
7. Go & see my guy
8. Do all of my E&T homework
9. Do all of my SADO homework
10. Do all of my Trial Practice homework
11. Write out my bills
12. Balance my checkbook
13. Go through all of the pics I picked up last week
14. Workout
15. Write my guy
16. Dig out some paperwork that my guy needs & mail it
17. File this week's papers
18. Catch up on my emails
19. Catch up on my TIVO
20. Register for summer classes
21. Send out the munchkin's first communion invitations
22. Catch up on reading all of my blogs
23. Catch up on responding to my commenters! :)
24. File my glass claim
25. Straighten out a mistake on my new insurance papers
26. Get organized...I'm feeling all out of sorts lately.
27. Remain focused with WWs
28. Remain focused for next week
29. Get me some serious sleep
30. Plan out my week