You would think with a surprising weight loss this week I would have been able to keep it together, but I fell off the wagon tonight. Apparently I was on a one-woman's mission to eat our entire vending machine stock tonight! I haven't purchased anything out of our vending machine in months. Seriously I cannot remember the last time I succumbed to the pull of ourvending machine. After scarfing down a bag of BBQ chips, 2 packages of peanut M&M's, and a Snicker's bar I felt horrible! Not just about the fact that I consumed more crappy food than 4 people should consume in a day, but physically I felt horrible.
What was I doing?!? Ugh! I couldn't stop myself. I'm not even sure if I chewed anything. I was just sitting there "working" (which means playing solitary), shoveling crap into my pudgy little mouth. What was I thinking?!? I wish I could answer these questions, but I can't. Maybe it was because I was tired. Maybe it was because I'm totally stressed. Maybe it was because I'm craving crap and my last two attempts to eat crap (a chips & salsa trip proved unsuccessful with my choice of tacos as they had no taste whatsoever; and our dinner out Saturday for yummy pizza failed with crappy tasting pizza) have failed. I think I'll make burritos tomorrow night, which won't be total crap but should be tasty. Maybe...maybe...maybe... I don't know why I did it. I just can't let it continue. I was successful to stay out of the drive-thru on the way home after class though, but boy oh boy I really wanted a whopper too!
Before I consume any more calories today I'm going to go to bed now. Plus I need to pull close to a couple of all nighters in the next two days. Wish me luck y'all!
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Aww, hang in there! We all have those moments. I find that if I allow an indulgence here and there, I have less of those completely fall off the wagon moments. But, we're all human, and it happens. Hell, the stuff tastes so darn good, how could you not? :)
ReplyDeleteits the PMS/Hormones... Happens to me when I take my pills each month.
ReplyDeleteDebbie~~Thank you! It does taste so darn good, dangit! Ugh... I think my level of exhaustion is playing a huge part in this. Oh yeah, and that stress level thing I've got going on sure as shit isn't helping either. Ugh... Thanks my friend for your kind words!
ReplyDeleteBlaez~~I agree that PMS and Hormones are working against me right now too! Mother nature is scheduled for this Thursday...stupid hormones!! Thank you my friend for your kind words!
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