Yesterday there was another family court hearing involving my x-s-i-l about the boys. It was scheduled for 3:15pm. A few minutes before I received a picture text from my bro...it was my x-s-i-l being escorted in to the court room. The message read "Gotta love x-s-i-l in schackels and stripes!" Yes, she was being escorted to the court room by a Sheriff's Deputy from the county jail! Apparently she is hitting her rock bottom as she has been charged with possession of cannibus and cocaine less than 50 grams with intent to deliver.
In less than 9 months she has went from a productive mom of two, attending school with the support of my whole family to this, with a swing thru here. Way to go x-s-i-l!! You should be proud... (yes, I need that sarcasm font pronto!)
how does a mother go wrong? i ask myself that all the time... BioMom use to be so awesome from what I heard. She graduated college, worked a really great job! She and my dad traveled all the time... and then she got pregnant. She started to drift off after that... and once I was born, she flipped out. No one understands and I still don't understand. I have pictures of her from before she went mental. She was so beautiful and fit and she could have been a model!!! and now... now she is waisted away and over weight and has let herself go... you wouldn't recognize her! I know I can't see the woman she use to be...
ReplyDeleteI just wish I knew the woman she use to be.
Blaez, I've often wondered myself. When I became a mom my life changed forever. I never think of myself first. When I have a decision to make 9 out of 10 times (because I'm not perfect) I think of my munchkin first...how does it affect him? what is best for him? what will it get him or take from him? when he is grown will he be proud of that decision his mommy made or would he be ashamed? Then I make that decision. But some people cannot do that. My x-sil cannot do that. She cannot put her children first. I think sometimes certain people are too selfish at that time when they have children and do it for the wrong reasons. Sometimes...it really isn't their fault. Sometimes...it is how they were raised and they know no difference. You are what you are raised unless you choose to make it different (kind of what I have done in my life). Even my x-sil...I don't completely blame her, she knows no different lifestyle, but I blame her for choosing not to change things when she gave birth to my nephews.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like your BioMom had some sort of a mental breakdown when she became pregnant and has never been able to get over it. I'm curious...have you ever told her that you wish you could have known the woman she once was? You don't have to answer that... But you know what...she may not understand it either...Hugs to you my friend.
Such a sad situation.
ReplyDeleteP.S. you can borrow my blog titles anytime!
It is Dani...it is... :(
ReplyDeletePS: Thank you!!